Welp this guy couldn't even win in What If situation. This manga is messed up till the end ┑( ̄Д  ̄)┍ It is obvious only person that MC ever loved and will continue to is Yule. It was bound to be like that from the beginning and after all that had happened to him.
"I didn't wanna think about him for even one second."
*thinks about him 24/7*
You go Alex