It's not the most horrible shit that I have read but it's really bad. The character are not that well righten, the story is chaotic and is just a repetition of bad pattern which always includes r4pe violence and idealistic behaviour. To be honest it's sometimes even disgusting and absolutely don't serve the story in itself (what is the story lmao?) In the end there's just nothing more than bad smut and horrible righting I'm so pissed.
"I tried everything but nothing has worked" but have you tried seeing a therapist tho ? To work on your anger issues and immaturity, maybe ? just saying...