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if you've spent the great majority of your adult years chasing and seeing you crush have their amazing romance that doesn't involve you , it's a you problem ofc but it's also super discouraging, like it's really hard to see yourself as loveable if that's how it's always been, so ofc when someone shows clear interest in you , you'd feel lacking, you'd feel insecure, and you'll put up a wall to protect yourself from hurt, now that he's also needing to balance the heartbreak of that crush marrying, he'll be even more vulnerable.