Short answer: no. Long answer: your self-image seems very painful, and for the sake of your happiness (which has nothing to do with whether you are or aren't in a relationship), I hope you find ways to reconcile your reflection with your ideal. I suspect your self-reflection is too harsh and your ideals are somewhat, if not wholly, out of reach, ......
Sexy power bottoms. Any cuties that range between Mariach (pataliro) to Yashiro (saezuru tori wa habtakanai) to Wei Wuxian (Ma dao zu shi) As long as they can ride they and with stand light bdsm, they can get the D.
that one yuri on ice dj holy shit. Where victor was amputated. I don't really read much fucked up stuff cause i prefer fluff but holy shit reading that out of curiousity made me fall into a state of complete shock and i had to cleanse myself with cute mangas n music afterwards
For some reason,I like drawing female characters with pixie/bob cuts and male characters with long or longish hair. Not sure if this also exactly related to the exact question but some of my favorite character designers includes Yoshitaka Amano,Tomomi Kobayashi,Ayami,Kojima,Yoji Shinkawa,Kazuma Kaneko,Shigenori Soejima and Masayuki Doi.
big fluffy puppy-like guys? Guys who look like they'd give the best hugs and are soft spoken. Usually tall, broad shouldered, light fluffy hair, kind eyes. Makoto Tachibana kind of guys, we need more of them. girls with muscles are really cool. But it bothers me when they aren't drawn consistently. If the girl is buff make her whole body buff not......
Definitely beauty marks for me too! Under the eye or the lip is really appealing to me. I also tend to prefer dark hair over light, and really love ponytails, be it long or just a small little puff of hair. Not sure if clothing counts on this but the thing I REALLY cannot resist in a design is when characters have clothing hiding part of their nec......
- both Alex & MD from "BJ ALEX" - Yoon Seungho from "PAINTER OF THE NIGHT" - Kang Daehyung from "ON OR OFF" - Song Jihyun from "BACK TO SCHOOL" (I team Kyujin though lol) - Kyle Hackman from "FRIVATE SCANDAL" - father & son: Kang Minwoo & Kang Seojin from "BODY COMPLEX" - Klaus Arnault from "RENT BOY" - Felix from "DEAR BENJAMIN" - Ivan from "THE D......
Yuri or yaoi?