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From xiaojiangworld:City boy, Chiaki, was asked to take on a ?Big Project? by his grandfather and se...

From Hoshikuzuu Scans:Kami, who is gay, has given up on love. Despite not having anyone to share his...

Junwoo, a hikikomori, passes his days alone, nestled within the darkness of his room that protects h...

Junwoo, a hikikomori, passes his days alone, nestled within the darkness of his room that protects h...

"I've been thinking from the first time I saw you – it seemed like you'd have a...

Leo is left for dead after a robber stabs him with a knife and runs away. But, up until the very mom...

The story follows Bum, a young mentally ill man with a difficult past. After becoming infatuated wit...

The story follows Bum, a young mentally ill man with a difficult past. After becoming infatuated wit...

This is the second time I’ve read KS. I first started reading it in 8th grade around 2016 and finished it somewhere around the time I was completed and while I don’t think I should’ve read it at that age for the content alone - I also wasn’t able to understand the sheer complexity of Sangwoo and Yoon Bum at that age. It gave me this misguided perception of these characters that was so completely wrong.
There is so much depth and pain behind these two that really can’t be thought about at surface level.
The abuse that both of them endured turned them into the two sides of the same coin.
The raw emotional (and physical) pain Bum goes through with Sangwoo when that’s somewhat the only treatment he’s ever known probably did nothing more than resolidify the understanding that this was the only way he could be loved. Even though the “love” he thought he had for Sangwoo was likely just an obsession or infatuation because no one else had been kind to him.
But for Sangwoo, having such a deeply complicated relationship with his mother and having zero control in life growing up, even when it came down to “killing his mother”, his mom was the one who inevitably killed herself. The similarities between Bum and his mom show us his mental state and need to cling on to some form of control - even if he’s using Bum as a stand-in for his late mother.
On the same hand, I think Bum also longed for this sense of control over either his life or surroundings. Maybe a sense or normalcy? The way he slowly becomes more bold with Sangwoo shows his comfort in finally being able to take some control (although not much).
Both characters are so unstable and in the end, Sangwoo couldn’t control his death, and Bum’s attempt to cling onto something familiar failed as Sangwoo slipped out of his grasp through death.

There is so much painful beauty in the way these two were written and having the reader witness the horrible sides of abuse in such a literal sense is incredibly immersive and difficult. It’s an ugly story, and that’s what makes it so good.
There’s no happy ending and it hurts. I hurt.

End note, I totally think exit music (for a film) is the perfect song for this story.

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Seowoo reunited with Raon whom he had a crush on in school. Due to his introverted personality, he a...

Why was ohn’s convo with jaewoo censored? Why did it immediately go to a time skip where ohn is with seowoo??? I feel like the way this was leading up to would be he just chooses both twins or something? What?? Is anyone else as confused as I am?

Caught in the clutches of an abusive relationship, Sooin longs to escape. A vampire who finds human ...

That’s a lot of smut

“Nice to meet you. I’m just a lowly junior to you, right?”Rich, handsome, and hard...

Spring: the second year of university. A time when a student should be able to enjoy their freedom a...

Jung Jaehan, a third-generation chaebol, is an influential person in the entertainment industry and ...

Hojun’s recent breakup was pretty rough. His partner told him it wasn’t him, per se&hell...

Everyone has secrets they want to hide.Do-kwon has a habit of deliberately wrinkling his face to hid...

Hyeonu, a newcomer who radiates dark energy among newcomers who are excited about their fresh start ...