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Hi, queer person here who had to deal with a shit ton of internalized homophobia, here to talk about the difference between fantasy and reality when it comes to relationships. I'm going to take a wild guess here and say the people who wanted Subin to end up with Hyunwoo are either a) straight, b) have never dealt with an unhealthy relationship before or c) are the weirdos who like to over-romanticize BL because Y'ALL ARE LIVING IN A FUCKING FANTASY.

You guys don't get a say in this because you cannot see the story the author wanted to portray, and it wasn't just about moving on from a crush or finding love, it has a lot to unpack about questioning one's sexuality too!

The extras where a handful of characters gave their thoughts on marriage or love just proves that! We have Subin who hates uncertainties because that's all he's grown used to, be it with his love or with himself. We have Jun, who doesn't really care as long as he could have Subin, because Subin makes him feel the love he's been searching for. We have Hyunwoo who thinks relationships are just passing things that have an inevitable end, resulting in him not knowing what to do when he realizes he WANTS an exclusive relationship with Subin- but he was confused as fuck and he brushes off talks regarding his sexuality, too deep in denial to be able to actually give Subin what he wants.

Yuna-noona who was very open-minded about other people's sexualities and relationships but only looked for casual, non-committal partners because she can't be bothered. Min Jihun, the openly bisexual, who's lovesick and stuck and craves for permanence and validation in others.

I'd also like to add that Jihun and Hyunwoo ending the story perfectly loops back to the beginning, because Jihun is exactly what Subin used to be, hung-up in finding happiness in someone else. It just means Hyunwoo has another fool of a friend, while he, himself, still has a lot of confusion he needs to settle.

Jun is not toxic, might I add as well. He was the better choice from the start. Wanna know why? Because Hyunwoo had five years, 5 YEARS and it still ended in a travesty whilst Hyunwoo had months and he still managed to make Subin feel wanted and important and worthy, all the while not making Subin feel dependent on him because he wanted Subin to nurture love for himself.

If anything, Hyunwoo was the toxic one for "experimenting" with his identity with a person who's both trying to move on from him and was already in a relationship. You don't get brownie points for admitting to your wrongs, or not asking for consent, and you most certainly shouldn't be excused for trying to kiss an already taken person! Even if he knew he was going to be forgiven, that was unfair to both Subin and Jun.

Bottom line is, Hyunwoo needs to work with himself (hopefully he and Jihun can work things out) and Jun deserves to be able to love Subin.

While their relationship could use work, arguments and jealousy are all very valid elements! Besides, Jun wants to work things out, in comparison to Hyunwoo who thinks all of that was pointless and they would always have the option to break up anyways. He isn't in the right headspace to be in a committed relationship and that's exactly what Subin needs after the 5 years of push and pull he played, it's also exactly what Jun could give him.

Thanks for tuning into my rant, see you next time in my next read lmao bye

I cannot wait to read this. It’s basically isekai Mamma Mia aka one of the best movie of all time

What? they're gay? I thought they're just homies doing homie stuff

Since I wrote this as a reply to a comment, might as well share for others. How did it get this long? Σ( ￣□￣||) HUGE SPOILER (READ AT OWN RISK!):










So basically this is a story about reincarnation. Long ago there are 3 Children of God (children who are loved and blessed by God). 1st child who killed his lover. 2nd child who killed her son. 3rd child who killed his parents. Because of their sin, all 3 were cursed by God to reincarnate with dark mana (or dark magic within) and remember their past lives. Once they remember their lives, they will repeat their sins. 1st child will fall in love, remember his lover and kill his lover again. 2nd child will love her child, remember her past and kill her child. 3rd will do the same for his parents. They repeat countless reincarnation like this, basically living in torment for their guilt by killing their loved ones. As you can guess, the 2nd child is our MC Aisha (I think she's the great saintess from 500 years ago who was said will be reborn again), and Abel is the soul of her child she will end up killing if she ever remembers her past due to the curse. The medication MC is taking (as seen in the webtoon) is given to suppress her power and memory so she wouldn't remember. The one supplying this medication is a priest from the temple name Mikhail/Michael (?), who is the 1st cursed child of God. And as may suspect, our MC is his past lover. Michael is planning to kill MC before he falls in love with her again so that he won't suffer the pain of killing a loved one again. The reason why MC killed her child long ago was bcuz her child was in pain/sick and she couldn't help bear to watch him suffer, so to end her child's pain, she killed him. As for the 1st child of God, he himself couldn't remember why he killed his own lover. The 3rd child of God however, watching the 2 suffer from their sins, he tried to break the curse by killing the God himself but he didn't succeed (and ended up getting cursed too, with killing a parent curse). The 3rd child of God was the most favoured and he has the power to Procreate/Create life, so he ended up creating the world for the 2 other child of God hoping for them to break the curse so they all can be free (so basically the 3rd child is the author of the book MC read).


Our poor MC will start stopping taking her medication and that's when her power and memory slowly coming back (she had both black magic and white magic in her body). That's when she realize that she will end up killing Abel if this goes on. She will want to break their engagement and ask ML to kill her bcuz she couldn't kill herself as the curse will rebound any effort of self mutilation. Oh and also she was Janes (in her past life before she dies and got reincarnated and transmigrated into current body, Aisha), the person who guided ML to save the then orphaned Abel. MC as Janes, pleaded to ML to take good care of Abel and for him to promise her to kill anyone who will come to him in the future saying that they remembered their past lives. And ML promised Janes.


And in the current timeline, after MC remembers this, she asks ML to uphold that promise. ML is totally livid and their conversation is so heart breaking. ML refused, but MC said that with the curse she won't be able to stop herself from killing Abel, and she kept apologizing to ML for dragging him into this mess of a fate. She also said that now she had black magic, she could even control ML's mind (as black magic can brainwash people) if she wants (kind of hinting she might command him to kill her using that method if he continues to refuse), but ML kept refusing and hoping they find a way to break the curse together. ╥﹏╥

Anyway, since the spoiler is incomplete and I don't have all the details, some things happened and it's happy ending! They managed to break the curse and finally all three children of God can live in peace. MC and ML got to have their happy ending with Abel, creating a happy family.

The fox girl missed her chance to peg him smh