I was actually ANTICIPATING his suicide, just waiting excitedly for him to kill himself because honestly I felt so terrible and helpless for him, I genuinely felt like that was the answer.
girl, I got Stockholm syndrome because by the end I was like.. uh yay?? no more suicide loneliness woohoo.!!...???
idk how to feel.
absolute hot trash story, stunning art I was mesmerized by the mess, it's like seeing something so horrifying you are frozen and petrified unable to move or shut your eyes.
I feel terrible for him, the groveling wasn't enough but the groveling we DID get did make me somewhat (?) satisfied
i’ll be damned if i’m ever fooled and disrespected like this ever again in my life (¬_¬)
LONG BUT PLEASE READ TILL END
while i do agree it was horribly for MC to do such horrible things you must take in her circumstances and surroundings.
there is a clear line between rich and poor, the rich make the rules and stand on the top. thus the rich have the clear CHOICE on whether or not they choose to be good or bad or do things in the name of justice in a corrupt way. the rich have that privilege and priority while the poor do not. (at least in this story)
MC had to deal with 1. already being poor 2. a sick and dying mother 3. debt and more debt piling up. money as they say makes the world go around, without the money there is no way to live properly. the stress loaded onto MC and thus she went off into the deep end.
she was not given the privilege of doing things for mere justice when she herself has no power to provide it. i mean come on she's broke and alone.
the black knight commander (i dont remember his name) took her state into consideration but not in a loving way. he used it to manipulate her to do his deeds (i am guessing) and either 1. was in love with her in some sick way 2. needed her to fulfill the "chores" and do his dirty work 3. simply liked watching her fall into suffering.
it's obvious she didn't take pride in her choices and yet continued to make them. she probably believed she had gone too far and had no way out (due to her commanders manipulation) so she continued to do so in order to survive.
while she is not a saint she is also no Satan. cut her some slack.
in fact look at yourselves, i see people constantly simping for vicious and horrible men such as Dion from How To Protect the Female Lead's Older Brother and hating on morally gray female MC's.
i know you'll say I'm exaggerating and bringing sex/gender into it but i have seen it in MULTIPLE manhwas. you'll praise the attractive yet absolutely despicable men and trash onto the not good/not bad female characters. grow up and realize it please.
EXAMPLES.
Attractive Male VILLAINS: the villain Yohan from White Blood/Unholy Blood, simply because he is attractive many ignore all the horrible deeds he committed and continue praising his looks and "love" along with Dion from The Way to Protect the Female Lead's Older Brother.
Morally Gray Female MC: the MC Suji from the Pyramid Game there are instances where she is not a good nor a bad person but a human simply trying to survive but because she is not kind and sweet she is mainly shit on by many people. Along with the MC in Surviving Romance
A very strong flawed not innocent FL who wants to atone for her past crimes and live her life without anymore regrets.
She wants vengeance but she wants to become a better version of herself first.
Kinda reminds me a little of the great story: The Monster Duchess and The Contract Princess
THANK YOU! finally someone said it. i’m tired of seeing people brush off the mc’s situation. she is a definition of a human that would do whatever they can just to survive. i couldn’t word it better myself.
They already know they just don't care, and neither do I its not like i hate her shes just there as the main character so what can I do
ah you reminded me to continue on with that one! i forgot about finishing it ╮(￣▽￣)╭
sorry that it was long! i just saw some pretty crude comments completely trashing on her as if she truly had a choice so i went on a rant LOL
It is still very engaging. Trust me.
as a child with a neglectful father or to put it simply a father who left i understand vincente. while i do not crave my fathers love or anything related to him i could most certainly understand this.
while i can't help but subconsciously dislike the MC and label her as selfish i do understand that her circumstances did not help. the staff and husband were horrible for simply labeling her as a "spy" and leaving her out of things simply because was a woman from another family.
it's so obvious she had PPD and without having lady in waiting there was no one to really help her or teach her how to get through it. while i will NEVER EVER forgive her or justify her neglecting her son (i still can't help but hate her for that) i do not think she is an evil person.
i do see her as selfish, but i suppose i see her as a morally gray person too. she isn't innocent but nor is she guilty of something. she was a victim to bad circumstances and dealt with having a child alone at age 16-17 while dealing with other things. obviously it piled up on her. she is most certainly a horrible mother in the past, but she's trying so hard now... i guess i give her brownie points for that.
i used to think i was a nice person but after reading this i've just gotten so triggered. i can't help but see her as a selfish woman. but... i'm so conflicted. i guess this story struck a nerve. of course i want to continue reading because i feel like this story has also taught me more about people's different POVs and whatnot
she definitely was selfish, but being selfish doesn't make you a bad person, the ones that i feel were more in the wrong were the ones that saw how selfish she was and the mistakes that she was making and didn't told her about it or helped her with her PPD, like honestly, HOW difficult is to notice someone is not ok and try to help them, even if you can't help, you try to guide them to someone that actually can..... （￣へ￣）
exactly it's quite infuriating in fact. so much could have been prevented if the people had at least tried to speak with her or help her out, but she is just surrounded by other close minded and selfish people thus making her situation worse.. still can't fully sympathize or like her though but i get you
that’s it.. it just hurts. hanbi, sua and sunwoo are all fucked up people. of course i sympathize with hanbi much more and totally despise sua and sunwoo, those two deserve nothing. if only sua and hanbi got together first
i understand the people disgusted with the fl and zion. i also understand the people who are defending the fl and zion.
i have friends that dated people like zion/the female lead and it is HORRIBLE, dating someone and wanting to love them only for you to realize they're going to dump you just cause. and being in the situation where my friend went after my other friend's ex. someone who made her breakdown and sob her eyes out, she STILL dated him. i dropped that friend obviously.
but take it from zion and the fl's situation.
they're NOT bad or evil people, you also have to understand that zion doesn't even know if leo and him are friends, leo made no effort to stop the breakup and they've been broken up for 3 years.
i do sorta get the frustration of seeing zion go after the girl who practically broke his friend tho. it's pretty fucked up to go after the one person who made your friend break down and cry.
BUT you also have to take the fl into consideration, the trauma of seeing her parents divorce and losing belief in the existence of love has obviously affected her. she admits she feels bad for her ex's and is a coward.
but she isn't evil or cruel, she breaks up with them when she loses feelings since it would hurt both her AND her s/o if she stayed with them.
it's not about whether the people in these comments are "mature" it's about how the FL has been a shitty person thus far and how she dealt with her situations resulted in the pain in ANOTHER person.
but also remember that leo didn't fight for her, nor did he accurately explain his feelings well. that's his loss. and the fl shouldn't have been so mean either. but no one is right or wrong.
just read the story and enjoy it or drop it and forget about it.
Totally agree
Also that "dating someone and wanting to love them only for you to realize they're going to dump you" also applied to FL
FL believe in the novel that leo will immediately fall in love with yulliana
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Apparently zion read the novel too even before he met FL
HAHH?? OMGG
yeah i meant to say that the FL was a player and just like zion but i forgot her name LOL sorry for the confusion!
I think maturity does become a factor when they refuse to change their idea even after proven wrong by multiple people. For example some of them don’t seem to understand that having to witness a divorce as a child is traumatizing. It forces you to wake up and realize all those fantasy you had were fake. Your parents won’t get back together even tho they married said their vows and had you. Some readers just don’t understand this huge factor and it just pains me Bc I’ve been through this same divorce shit and it just seems like they are playing it off as something that’s not important or something that doesn’t need hold impact when it does very much. To a child their family is their whole world, their warmth, and their safety box and to have that stripped away one day you obviously lose a piece of you’re original self. (this is my thoughts)
ah i see! i get what you mean, i've never dealt with parents splitting since yk just a mom. but i have seen some of my friends go through mental breakdowns due to divorce and it's very much obvious how it affects someone! I wish you the best and the greatest happiness. but what i greatly dislike with this FL now is the spoilers that (spoiler)
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the FL would play with the original ML's feelings and get "mad/sad" when he is heartbroken and relies on the ORIGINAL FL for comfort. also it was stated that the FL and the ML zion will kiss in front of the original ML knowing that he is in love with our FL. Which automatically made me think "such horrible people..." so i understand it now but my view changed a lot after the spoilers. i don't really like our FL anymore
It's fine and dandy that they admit they are assholes and cowards who have painful past.
It's not fine to start a game of romance where you just stop when you start to develop feelings or when the feelings fade away. You don't want to get hurt, then don't hurt people in return. Is that too much to ask for?
You don't believe in love? Then why are you dating people who truly into you and hurt them? How about not dating anyone and heal yourself first? It's not like they will die if they don't date or something smh
someone did research typa shit and i appreciate it!
http://www.mangago.zone/home/mangatopic/6816921/
check this comment out!
UwU thank you
No thank you for posting it in the first place. You literally don’t understand how great full I am for you explaining it
*grateful LOL
Honestly, I was just as interested as everyone else and I enjoy writing. I'm actually surprised that someone looked that far deep into the comment section that they managed to find my super old comment.
yeah i do be stalking the comment section sometimes (づ￣ ³￣)づ
ugh omfg. alexa could shove three water bottles up my ass, burst my intestines, run me over once, drop a dumb bell on me, wack me and insult me everyday and i would say "please" and "thank you". (please don't condone abuse)
but you now understand how much i am SIMPING FOR THIS FINE ASS WOMAN.
i rarely see fl's in manhwa's that have a tan or brown skin and to be honest it's so refreshing to see.
brown women, black women, white women are all beautiful and finally brown women are getting the recognition they need here. UGFBSIUbiuewhfiwu
Lmao "(please dont condone abuse)"
UGFDGLHGFHJKKLLLKDKSK
EXACTLY MY WORDS. SHE CAN MAKE ME HER SLAVE AND I CAN SPEND MY WHOLE LIFE LICKING HER FEET
the last time i said something like this my friends tried to get me a therapy appointment cause they thought i liked abusers so i gotta give that little warning tip now ｡･ﾟヾ(✦థ ｪ థ)ﾉ｡ﾟ･｡
seriously tho, she could throw me in a pit of lava and i would still love her as a ghost.
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TE AMO!!! I love you, ignore dummies, they have little pea brains with no wrinkles if they don't agree with you. your comments, memes, and edits all atee, I agreed with all