I read this yaoi long time ago i couldnt find again. Manga starts with two man playing rock -paper-s to choose who will be top. I dont remember anything else lol
Happy Shitty Life by Harada: https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/happy_shitty_life/
If anyone still wondering I found it
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/yoru_mo_hi_mo_akenai/mf/c001/
Luke stop it man