now that I'm rereading this, it really made me realize that this is real 'cause it has similarities to the one I experienced as a kid... like the one when that 'nii-chan' let Yui play with his psp and other stuff... it also pretty scary because I noticed how weird things that I do some days are somehow the effect of how that shit happened to me. I can't also say this to my family because of two things. First was before when I was on Grade 4, I'm not sure if that happened to me, but then when I stayed on their house (her sister, my cousin, is really close to me) while sleeping, I caught him almost touching me. I cried that night and almost screamed but he told me to shut up. I don't also want to be an embarrassment. That time I'm sure that he did those things before to me. Last is that I can never tell my parents nor people who're close to my family about that because I don't want to cause other people more trouble. Up until now, I'm still silent about all of this. Only my friends and other people in my organization knows about this. I also told them not to tell anyone.
I also hate that I'm becoming a sort of pervert and liking really weird things because of this. Hahah, makes me wanna die some times. Also please don't pity me or something.
this makes me remember how I got molested when I was a kid and made me develop a sort of fetish (idk) of being rape and other shit. shit, it's so horrible
I'm so sorry for you , you're so strong :(
ur not alone babe, same for me :/
I've never been molested but I have a rape fetish well for of a forced sex fetish. (⊙…⊙ )
welp:')
uhh, don't worry I'm doing good now :) thanks though
IDK if you knew this already but its called CNC and apparently a lot of people who are survivors of SA develop it as a sort of coping mechanism/ way to feel in control. Oddly enough, it seems to help a lot of people which you wouldn't think.
ooohh :'0 better search more about that, thanks for letting me know (⊃｡•‿•｡)⊃
lol I can't imagine how frustrated isagi too, like he's been thinking/analyzing so much while playing but still can't do much in the game jajajajajajaj
Go Isagi!
even rin wants the mc position now HSHSHSJAJAJ
that's a life of background characters - everyone wanna be the [protagonist] lol
welp ikr HAJAJDAJJAHSJA