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i relate to Eunho… so so fuckin’ hard, man. all my life, i was told that i was easy and calm and got along with everyone. i was taught to never say no, to always help others before myself, that anything i did for myself was selfish. it made me become a terrible people pleaser and pushover to the max that i lost who i was as a person. the phrase of “i promise i’m not dirty”, “you can use me”, “i’ll do anything to make you happy” repeat constantly in my head and it makes me tear up seeing another person go through those thoughts. we know people well because we had to watch them and their emotions, we’re not stupid babies who don’t know how to set boundaries, it’s just super hard for us to get out of that dark mindset.