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i love this chapter specifically because it reminds me of my first time with my ex-boyfriend. i was abused a lot during my childhood and my body has permanent repercussions from it to this day, so when the topic of sex came up with my ex and i, i avoided it like the plague. i was also afraid of truly telling him i loved him because of trauma with past relationships. sex was scary to me yes, but being honest about my feelings was even more terrifying. Shinpei did exactly what my ex did; called me beautiful and said my body is perfect just the way it is and that we didn’t have to do anything further than cuddling. he was my first love. :’)