HOW COULD YOU PUNT A TINY PUPPERS, HEAR HIM WHIMPER AND NOT GIVE AF LOOK AT HIM HE'S SMALLER THAN A HAND FFS
For real. Even if im running for my life I would grab it and run like hell then it's us against the world now
(spoiler)
so he takes him home right
he gets fixed up and wakes up in a bed and speculates who brought him home, and is suddenly overcome with fear and anxiety thinking ML is mad at "discovering" his "deception" so he hides
it was drawn so, so sweetly when ML coaxes him to come out and they share their first kiss, but my god the novel nearly broke me because heesung was so terrified of being rejected again that it's like he couldn't think and as ML approached, he was trying to frantically cover himself with ML's clothes while shivering and sobbing in the closet like a kid like, baby pls omg come out he's known all along, let him care for you ahhhhhh
Where can we read the novel?
on novel updates, i think maybe 19 or 20s chapter? can't recall
you really see all sorts of crimes against typesetting in fan translations i was initially annoyed but it got so frequent i just kept busting out laughing when their words disappear into the light mid sentence lmao
it does NOT. prepare to be disappointed bc it's, quite honestly, one of the most unsatisfying resolutions to a fight i've seen in BL. it's like expecting an explosion and getting a bubble pop.
No chasing arc?? Ml not suffering??
I'm this
(oops this has turned into a rant while i was typing it up so tl;dr no, at least not yet we won't be getting the chasing arc.)
for one, the cliche Big Turning Point in their relationship won't be this argument. it's just a minor blip. from the recent raws, it might be after MC realizes he's falling for a guy who doesn't have the balls to admit they're in a committed relationship in all but name. (whether we'll get a breakup and satisfying chasing arc after that, i can't say. the author does have a habit of making doing this in two phases and the second fall out is usually the best one for the chasing/groveling arc.)
for THIS fight however they both give each other the cold shoulder & MC's scenes show that he misses ML. while moping that ML hasn't contacted him MC ends up overhearing some trashtalk about ML and the girl who has a crush on ML. he defends them & chastises the guys. obviously, ML and the girl are on the other side of the door and heard everything. awkwardness all around.
when everyone left, ML sits on a couch, stops MC from leaving, then does the begging/smoulder face to ask if he's done thinking about them and if they can see each other again. claims he hasn't contacted MC only because the MC said not to contact him as parting words after their argument.
now this is what really fucks me up about this 'reconciliation' scene.
MC relents to a conversation (while sitting on ML's lap) & clearly states the boundaries that have been crossed and ML's unfounded prejudices, along with admitting he was hurt when ML stated an ultimatum about cutting him off if he leaves.
ML apologizes (or what the author thinks is an apology) by saying, (non-direct translation) "Yes, I've been thinking why I overreacted that night. Usually if something bothers me about a fwb, I just cut them off. But it seems I've let you cross the line unknowingly and you mean much more to me so I can't do it and I want to see you again"
like, really? i hate how he phrases stuff like it's some huge milestone to admit he values MC which is WHY he said all those hurtful things. first of all, abusive parent/bf/partner dialogue 101 of 'I care about you that's why I did all that verbal abuse' much? second, the petty jealousy was initially fun, but not like this. not when the narrative itself FULLY PRESENTS the MC as somehow equally culpable for the ML's immature actions.
AND THEN
"I may have overreacted, but think about if you were in my position and I told you I would bring home a drunk friend who's a girl to my room just to sleep over. Wouldn't you have thought something as well?"
WHAT DO YOU MEAN. yes! if you brought a drunk friend home regardless of gender you better be just sleeping because that's sexual assault homeboy and he keeps trying to equate his shallow relationships with MC's actual honest to god best friend who is dealing with so much shit. he's grasping at the tiniest straws to shift the blame on MC instead of his double standard.
and the MC's takeaway from this is "Damn je has a point" and 'Wow he cares about me' and basically melts back into the relationship.
they enjoy a pretty clingy/affectionate and sexually charged fwb situationship afterwards where ML internally monologues about his growing affection for MC and methinks this emotionally constipated dude just hasn't had a platonic bestfriend yet so he's too dumb to tell the difference. they go on a trip with other people where MC, quicker on the uptake, starts getting anxious about his deepening feelings for a guy who blatantly told him he's not interested in anything more.
it's gonna be a long, long road ahead before i find satisfaction in this story but i like the author's prev stories so
This is depressing. ML is such a low life son of a bitch , who thinks everyone is hoe just bc he is a low life hoe. I hope author better give us 100 chapter's of that bitch crying, crawling, begging for mc's love and attention, if not I hope someone snatches away uke from him in the most disrespectful way as they could .
I want mc to leave this bitch and get a new man who would treasure him :) but he loves ML so much, we can't do anything about it argh
Thank you so much for the spoilers sweety
that proud nod and smile lol, like, ":> hehe yes i AM a good familiar. i'm gonna get such a good grade in familiar duties which is normal to want and possible to achieve."
when literally EVERYONE keeps flimsily alternating from doubting, trusting, blaming, pitying her, and they keep asking for proof for words for whatever they want FL to keep on giving and giving... as if all that she's shown in spite of trauma and her own internal struggles is never enough
AND THEN you have izek, who, after deciding to trust her, has never once faltered in his faith
my god, that "I'll always be on your side" is a bajillion times more poignant than an I love you for someone who has gone through severe abuse
it might be pointed out w/a child's perspective, but it doesn't negate the fact that she saw someone potentially being bullied and immediately did something to try and prevent that.
kinda sad when you think about how adults have been conditioned to ignore these things in the work place, because even MC as an adult also just wants to brush it off
usually for playful+scheming ML archetypes you only see them appear beside an unsuspecting FL all cool and witty
i never knew how much depth to the relationship it adds when we see the usually flirty ML actually catch a glimpse of FL, make a mad DASH to catch up, and get nervous/flustered before approaching her and coming back to their smooth self
i love that isidore has so many facets of his character shown bc it makes their interactions so genuine
dude fr I love blushy mls that get nervous sometimes
No one is that smooth irl most of the times, it makes the ml seem more human and genuine, especially if they are truly interested in MC. It's not a girl only thing to be flustered around someone you are interested in
it's the audacity i want crushed, not just the business. i want the FL to at least have the opportunity to personally jab him in the throat with that fan and look him in the eyes as she tells him how she nailed him, and watch as he sees the pedestal he put Og!FL on collapse when she desperately tries to set him up as the sole scapegoat when this all comes crashing down