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i'm aro ace and i've also had.. complicated relationships with social expectations and love and desire. and i've also had a stalker who was obsessed with me for 8 years and delivered crazed love letters to my house accusing me of being heartless. and threatened to kill himself. anyway that's in the past now but man is this triggering all those painful little buttons. hurt people tend to hurt themselves (and those around them) all the more. i was pleasantly surprised to find such a realistic and emotionally raw portrayal of rape trauma, depression, and even asexuality and aromanticism (though the aromanticism was brought under the umbrella of asexuality—i don't know how these concepts are viewed in korea's lgbtqa community). a fantastic but heavy and dark read.