Randomly raping a servant woman that was unlucky enough to come across them was so disgusting, i find both of them revolting. It spells like this creepy ass fantasy some men have about hypnotism and sexual assault. Dropped because i can't stand them. Also, their thought process is incredibly dumb, they're meatheads with all the meaning of the word.
Aside from being completely trash personality wise, the men are also chopped in comparison to fl. This story is just sad, there's nothing attractive about it, even though it's supposed to honour the smut part. Dropped.
Robert Blake was one of the few humans who found out about a small part of the truth regarding the universe and Nyarhalotep(Nia from the secretary from the manhwa).His mind began to slowly deteriorate. He was the first human to ever pray to Azathoth. He begged him to spare him but yeah, he just perished in the end. (some are my interpretations but the basic mention is accurate).
In a way, the only way mc can escape from him (since killing herself is pointless because he can just bring her back), is to truly find out the truth about the universe and who Azathoth's role really is, which will let her get erased from existence as she will be defying the laws of the universe. However, considering Azathoth manages to control her in the end, making her stay forever with him in complete ignorance, she'll never be able to achieve that as long as he's interested in her.
Her plan B would be to wait until he wakes up, because if Azathoth wakes up, the whole world will stop existing, getting lost in the void. And he'll also mindlessly forget all he has chaotically generated through his dreams, including her. This will take A WHILE lmao
Her plan c would be to make him lose interest in her, which is fat chance lol
Another fan fact is that saying Azathoth has no true form isn't completely true. He does have one ultimate form, which is beyond human comprehension. It's basically his eldritch, sleeping body which no being in existence, Gods or humans will ever be able to gaze upon, as it is in a 'spiritual'(not exactly the correct word, but i'm trying really hard to make it comprehensible) plane above everything in existence. It would like a "thought" attempting to notice the human who has generated it. That's why, the countless forms we see, are all projections in his "dreams", and his dreams are our plane of existence.
Sorry guys for geeking out for this character, you probably are tired of seeing my comments lmao, but here we go, some information about ml (Azathoth) so you can see how awesome is the author with her almost completely accurate interpretation:
So: Time and space depend on Azathoth, he(?) is the center of chaos, he IS chaos itself. Azathoth is lord of all. Azathoth gives the law to all worlds for he is the primordial creator. He is the chaos that pulsates in the heart of the universe, creating an infinite number of dimensions.
Basically a being of infinite power, nothing beats him because everything exists because of him.
Parts from Lovecraft writings:
"Matter and light were born anew as space once had known them. And comets, suns and worlds sprang flaming into life, through nothing survived to tell that they had been and gone, been and gone, always and always, back to no first beginning"
See how it all fits? How well the author has written him? And we and mc only see a glimpse of what Azathoth allows to be seen for he is existence itself, something beyond human comprehension. The existential crises and pure horror mc is going through is something that would break ANYONE.
You can't fight Azathoth, you would just go mad because it'd be like fighting existence itself. Knowing how mc SPOILER will live forever in complete ignorance, under his control is terrifying.
Edit: Another Lovecraft quote:
"The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents.
We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far.
The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the deadly light into the peace and safety of a new dark age."
First of all, these are second hand spoilers i've heard from someone who's actually read the Korean novel. The story ends with them technically together, but only because he eventually finds a way to erase every single horrific thing he's ever done to her from her mind. She never forgives him, because how the freak could she? He's utterly irredeemable. The only reason why she stays is ignorance, no sane person would willingly exist beside something like him.
As we all know, he isn't human. He can't comprehend the value of morality. He's a cosmic being, written WAY too well as one. Once the side stories get adapted, you'll understand that what we've seen so far is nothing compared to what's to come. The things he's done to her, over and over again, across countless dimensions, make the current chapters look merciful.
She has killed herself more times than anyone can count. And every time, he brings her back. Not even death is an escape because motherfucker won't allow it. Which, in a horrifying way, makes sense since he's literally the creator of everything.
He tortures her simply because he enjoys it and because he doesn't understand that what brings him pleasure could cause her pain. Morality, empathy and compassio are nonexistent to him, he's a chaotic creature that no human could ever willingly love.
He makes her forget because even with all his omnipotence, he still can't change her feelings. The revulsion she feels for him is instinctive because the human brain has adapted to remember and 'feel' danger. Also it's basically one of the things that are unalterable on her.
So yeah, he gets what he wants because he believes (and technically does in his world with no morals) he owns her since he created her and the world. And there's absolutely nothing she can do about it. It could be you, it could be me and we would all act the same way as mc. Helpless as fuck.
Calling him a black flag doesn't even come close lmao
This creature needs a flag of his own. The horror tag is very well placed. As for the romance tag, it probably refers to the fake reality he creates for her (him).
Edit: I'm just glad the author didn't make her magically fall in love with a monster that destroyed her life. I'm also glad he is written that way. He's not human so of course he'd never act like one. Nor would he be compassionate towards the random things he has created. So yeah, i still love the story as horror, it's masterfully written.
Just a speculation, but it seems that since Azathoth can't really comprehend mortal suffering, being an amoral God, he was initially just intrigued by her. She was the only human who truly saw him for what he was and somehow remained partly unaffected by the ever changing world under his control. Over time, though, he began to value her (forced) companionship. Not understanding how fragile the human psyche is, he assumed he could make her dependent on him, completely overlooking how human emotions actually work. Because of that, he didn't expect her to end up feeling nothing but hatred toward him.
When he finally realized what he had done, it was already too late. Trying to fix it, he likely erased parts of her memory and reshaped the world into something she would consider normal, hoping that, if he slowly revealed his true nature, she might accept him this time.
By human moral standards, he's clearly evil, and I don't blame her at all for hating him. (Honestly, I wouldn't have minded an ending where she somehow escapes, even if that's impossible given his omnipotence.) But from his perspective as a chaotic creator, morality is just another random construct, something that came into existence by chance through his creations. He does genuinely like her, just not in a way a human would and CERTAINLY not in a way that is favourable to her.
This chapter really fits with this song in a symbolic way:
On the farm, every Friday
On the farm, it's rabbit pie day
So ev'ry friday, that ever comes along
I get up early, and sing this little song
Run, rabbit, run, rabbit, run, run, run
Run, rabbit, run, rabbit, run, run, run
Bang, bang, bang, bang! Goes the farmer's gun
Run, rabbit, run, rabbit, run, run, run, run
Run, rabbit, run, rabbit, run, run, run
Don't give the farmer his fun, fun, fun
He'll get by without his rabbit pie
So run, rabbit, run, rabbit, run, run, run
And of course an Eldritch God, a daemonic God in his case, is evil. He doesn't have the moral standards of humans. He adheres to them now only for a show, in order to have mc. Mc was the only one unaffected in a dimension he controls, so she's the only one he could ever consider worthy of his focus.
Most Greek gods are cruel, narcissistic beings, and Apollo is no exception. He was arrogant long before Eros arrow struck him and only grew worse after it. A god like him is incapable of love, that's why the arrow didn't truly inspire affection, but obsession. Apollo embodies male greed, the insatiable desire to possess, to claim, to consume. He's willing to endanger Daphne's life for the sake of his pursuit, and even after Peneus transforms her into a tree to protect her, he desecrates her sanctuary, cutting off a branch from her to wear as a crown. He never lets her rest, convinced he's entitled to anything he desires. The only one Apollo ever truly loves is himself. How I wish Eros had struck only Daphne with the arrow of hatred, so that she could see the hollow, shallow truth of what Apollo is, and flee from him with clarity.
So, since ml is 100% the demonic Soultan Azathoth, basically the creator of the universe, the flute part (in which he said her voice is better than a flute) was a reference to the fact that Azathoth is asleep and is kept in that state by other amorphous entities which play the flutes. If the flutes stop, he will wake up and if he wakes up, the whole world will end.
This will happen because he "generates" worlds through his dreams and he does so randomly, that's why he is called "the idiot blind God", because he represents chaos and randomness. The universe after all IS believed to be random and chaotic.
I can empathize with what he endured as a child, the abuse from his parents and the torture he later suffered under the emperors orders. His life was marked by pain and betrayal (clearly there was a conspiracy against his house). But his past doesn't erase his crimes. It can't justify the way he treats a woman who is faultless in his suffering, a woman who genuinely loved him and even helped him.
His behavior is not born of love but of selfishness and obsession. He channels his hatred of the emperor and her family into her, weaponizing her loyalty. He manipulates her guilt, sexually abuses her, and deliberately breaks her until she becmes a fragile, compliant shell of her former self, a fucking doll he can always access and control.
Major spoiler ahead:
In the manhwa this abuse is depicted, but in the novel it's even more explicit.
Her first experience with him is a brutal rape. He
"rescues" her from a forced marriage to a fifty yearold man, something arranged by her own brothers (that want the throne), but his salvation is nothing but a creepy ass opportunity for him, he literally tells her "Either live sucking my dick or kill yourself. Those are your only options". She of course chooses rape because it's the only way to survive.
At one point he even says, while raping her, "Maybe it shouldn't just be me enjoying this hole. Such a waste, maybe your subordinates should have a taste too", degrading her.
All of this cruelty stems from a misunderstanding because he believes she agreed to send him to the border, even though it was solely her brother's order. He forgets everything she has done for him, everything she sacrificed, and takes her loyalty for granted. The suffering she endures is the direct result of his filthy mistrust. Eventually she reaches a breaking point. She wants to die, to leave her place as empress. Only when he loses her does he realize too late that he truly loves her. Regretful he begs her to punish him, and she does until he is groveling on the floor, asking for forgiveness.
I won't spoil any further details. But the story is a devastating portrait of how trauma can twist someone into a monster and how, in the end, remorse is often not enough to undo what's been done.
I feel empathy towards what he went through as a child, abused by his parents and then going through torture due to the emperor(obviously there was a conspiracy going on). However, his past and what he went through, don't erase the crimes he commits towards a, faultless to his circumstances, person, especially considering she was actually of help to him in the long run and harboured genuine feelings of love towards him. His behaviour is the result of selfishness and obsession which he justifies with the hatred he feels over what her father, the emperor, did to him. He purposely sexually abused and fed her with guilt, turning her into a vulnerable little doll that he'll be able to always have access to. The empress is nothing but a traumatised shell of her former self, under the control of a person that took advantage of her feelings and loyalty. She was forced to face the reality of the people around her so fast, it broke her.
She didn't cheat. She was drugged and raped. People really need to work on their reading comprehension so this can get through their thick head. This sounds like victim blaming to me. A person under the influence CANNOT consent and she screamed at him to stop.
Also spoilers from the book since i read it(whoever wants to also read it, go to eternaluna scans they have the best translation and if you don't want to buy earlier the chapters from 26 until 40 (it's less than 5 usd) they will get released for free pretty soon):
The boyfriend is a piece of shit who cheated on her countless times and saw her a piece of meat. Back then he made people isolate her and approached her when her mom died and she was vulnerable, because he wanted to sleep with her. He reveals who he is pretty soon by lusting for the 'governess' (blond bitch who abuses the maids) and having a mental breakdown, saying Anna will make him a 'cuck'. She even breaks up with him after seeing his true face and that's BEFORE she gets into the coercive relationship with the Marquis you'll see her getting into in the next chapters, with the hope that she can get back to her world.
Her relationship with the marquis is coercive and violent, she's not a willing participant. Saying an assault victim cheated in the first place, is absurd and callous.
Also, for people who wonder about it, Anna's current age is 24, the boyfriend's 25-26 and the Marquis (Rothbart) is 38. In the past, her version from the other dimension, married him when she was 21 and he was 24. But they met when she was 19 and he was 22. She gave birth at 24 and left him, so her current age is symbolic.
The person saying she "cheated" on her boyfriend is insane because she quite literally got drugged and raped. Wtf are you on?
"He's nothing but a low life thug!"
Said the sociopath rapist who wants to get his victim pregnant, without any care if the father and baby die. If mc is a thug, the. he is lower than trash. Dropped. Aside from having a ridiculous plot (you'll see what i mean once you read it), ml is so fucking disgusting, i'd rather not waste my time more.