Turns out i have a kink for dirty talk in formal English.I just wish it wasn't straight up rape with a completely inexperienced mc as well. It felt very creepy and uncomfortable.
Be prepared because in the book, he blackmails him after planning his friend's execution and forces him to sell his body to him. He calls him a whore (funny when the whore is him) and brutally rapes hi, he doesn't even prepare him and goes in dry, making him bleed. Reading his pov, he enjoys seeing Ruth in pain, beca he's a sadistic psychopath if it wasn't already clear from the glass scene. His thoughts are extremely nauseating, he holds no affection for Ruth he just finds him to be a good toy. The rape chapter is approaching, probably in 4 or 5 webtoon chapters the most. I was really disappointed reading the novel.
In the first timeline, Aeroc suffered beyond human understanding and was punished by Kloff unfairly. Yes, you read that right, it was unfair. I'm not saying the weigh doesn't fall on Aeroc's shoulders for wanting to 'scare' Rapiel, but getting constantly raped, having his original gender (Alpha) changed with drugs and then having his children (created by rape) taken away while he rots with zero human interactions in a small hut over something he VERY clearly regretted and he didn't even intent (he didn't order for the rape and murder of Rapiel, he was just too naive to trust the scoundrels he hired. We already knew he was naive from his investment choices). He lived in the streets getting assaulted and raped only to be moved, to get through even more hell with Kloff. At one point, Kloff abused him only to try and justify the attraction he felt towards him, since he was in denial for liking the person who was directly involved to his late husband's death. Kloff was so freaking messed up, that he even lacked the emotional understanding that someone can suffer without crying, because WHO THE FUCK wouldn't break and suffer after getting repeatedly raped and isolated? But i guess deep down he knew that, he was just going through cognitive dissonance due to his hatred. Kloff is NO better than the people who killed Rapiel, that's why i was furious when he was calling Aeroc 'Despicable' in his frail state. Kloff did something extremely demented to someone who didn't deserve it, and no one can deny this. Aeroc suffered more than enough and as bad as this may sound, he suffered way more than Rapiel did. His life was hell on earth and his last moments were disgustingly painful too. That's why in the other two timelines Aeroc gets the happiness he deserves. In the second, while having his memories of the past, he gets to live happily and heal while in the third timeline, he doesn't remember the hell he went through while Kloff does, and suffers forever with the knowledge that he'll never be able to apologize and give back the life to the frail Aeroc of the first life.
This is truthfully really painful and tests the limits of forgiveness and acceptance. On one hand i can understand the anger of Kloff towards Aeroc in the og life but on the other i cannot justify the continuous torture towards someone that showed clear regret, and not only that. It was actually proven that he never gave an order for 'rape', it was done so against his orders. There's no justification for the further torture that no human deserves to go through towards him. After all these nightmarish events, the reader is called to accept Kloff as a 'new' person and not who he was in the previous life, which is frankly speaking hard, incredibly hard since the ugly part of him was made known to us. I find it hard to accept that Aeroc is still open to him, despite the trauma he went through because of him. But i can also understand that the main reason he's so accepting towards Kloff is because of the guilt that never really left him. He believes that what he went through was something he deserved, so he sees nothing wrong with it. Kloff may be 'new' but Aeroc isn't. He's still the same, unfairly tortured person of the previous life. Aeroc will only be 'new' on their last life, with Kloff being the person he was on their first life and getting forced to develop into a better person, giving him a chance to treat Aeroc right. I honestly believe it depends on the reader on whether they can accept this or not. There's no right point of view when it comes to this. Personally i find it hard to forgive.
He is still controlling her, because he's unable to let go. He's in too much denial. The moment he's about to understand the impact of his actions and his own freaking emotions, he goes back to zero again and again. He's traumatized but this once again doesn't give him a pass at dragging Annette to hell with him. How can a man so selfless towards his country be so selfish towards Annette? I still can't get over the part that he used to not see her as a human capable of hurt and love, but as a reflection of the idealized version his ego created. Yes, he's a complex character and while he deserves rest, he certainly doesn't deserve Annette. But i guess life isn't fair and a realistic depiction of it isn't going to be fair either. I love how in the novel, she never fully heals nor fully forgets and accepts what Heiner did to her and what she went through when the reality of the world came crushing down.
Ml doesn't become remorseful after learning the truth and even avoids her for bit because he can't handle the fact that she has a human woman form too. Then after a few panels she just forgives him like nothing happened, in fact she immediately acts loving from the moment she gets released. No remorse arc, absolutely nothing.
The aide (brown haired guy) will even treat her hurt wrists once the emperor imprisons her again, then he imprisons the aide too. And all that, simply gets forgotten. I hate the emperor, he's dumb, annoying and uninteresting.
I disliked fl at the start but now i love her, as for ml, i liked him at the start but now his behavior made me feel disgusted.
What does the "Do you even have a right to refuse?" even mean?!? Of course she has, it's her fucking body.
Yes, Garon killed mc's mother (based on the novel) and yes, second ml is innocent aside from his drunken behavior (he's still an angel in comparison to Garon). Accept it already and don't search for a justification just because you feel bad for liking a horrible character.
Garon IS a rapist, IS a murderer and IS racist. Mc is going to fall for the murderer of his mother. Oh and he killed mc's mother just because he was bored. Being bored made him feel like wiping out a whole tribe with different species since he considers them disgusting and bellow him. There wasn't a single meaning behind his actions, it was like changing a channel on tv for him.
That's who Garon is. There's no redemption for him so don't expect any. He's a sadistic sociopath. The story is dark and there's not going to be any 'groveling' the way people want it.
If you like him, go ahead, nobody's gonna judge you, it's fiction. But he is who he is, let's not be delulu.
Imagine Leo, a rapist, loose manwhore calling ANYONE a whore lmao Talk about hypocrisy and lack of self awareness. If anything, she should be scared in case she caught STD from him. The only non pure thing in the room is him
Bro: "I'm sorry i was selfish"
Also Bro: Continues to be selfish by leaving her no option other than to be with him and putting her in danger through making the fact that she's his mate public knowledge.
Thanks pookie, such character development!