Sazz

In the first timeline, Aeroc suffered beyond human understanding and was punished by Kloff unfairly. Yes, you read that right, it was unfair. I'm not saying the weigh doesn't fall on Aeroc's shoulders for wanting to 'scare' Rapiel, but getting constantly raped, having his original gender (Alpha) changed with drugs and then having his children (created by rape) taken away while he rots with zero human interactions in a small hut over something he VERY clearly regretted and he didn't even intent (he didn't order for the rape and murder of Rapiel, he was just too naive to trust the scoundrels he hired. We already knew he was naive from his investment choices). He lived in the streets getting assaulted and raped only to be moved, to get through even more hell with Kloff. At one point, Kloff abused him only to try and justify the attraction he felt towards him, since he was in denial for liking the person who was directly involved to his late husband's death. Kloff was so freaking messed up, that he even lacked the emotional understanding that someone can suffer without crying, because WHO THE FUCK wouldn't break and suffer after getting repeatedly raped and isolated? But i guess deep down he knew that, he was just going through cognitive dissonance due to his hatred. Kloff is NO better than the people who killed Rapiel, that's why i was furious when he was calling Aeroc 'Despicable' in his frail state. Kloff did something extremely demented to someone who didn't deserve it, and no one can deny this. Aeroc suffered more than enough and as bad as this may sound, he suffered way more than Rapiel did. His life was hell on earth and his last moments were disgustingly painful too. That's why in the other two timelines Aeroc gets the happiness he deserves. In the second, while having his memories of the past, he gets to live happily and heal while in the third timeline, he doesn't remember the hell he went through while Kloff does, and suffers forever with the knowledge that he'll never be able to apologize and give back the life to the frail Aeroc of the first life.

This is truthfully really painful and tests the limits of forgiveness and acceptance. On one hand i can understand the anger of Kloff towards Aeroc in the og life but on the other i cannot justify the continuous torture towards someone that showed clear regret, and not only that. It was actually proven that he never gave an order for 'rape', it was done so against his orders. There's no justification for the further torture that no human deserves to go through towards him. After all these nightmarish events, the reader is called to accept Kloff as a 'new' person and not who he was in the previous life, which is frankly speaking hard, incredibly hard since the ugly part of him was made known to us. I find it hard to accept that Aeroc is still open to him, despite the trauma he went through because of him. But i can also understand that the main reason he's so accepting towards Kloff is because of the guilt that never really left him. He believes that what he went through was something he deserved, so he sees nothing wrong with it. Kloff may be 'new' but Aeroc isn't. He's still the same, unfairly tortured person of the previous life. Aeroc will only be 'new' on their last life, with Kloff being the person he was on their first life and getting forced to develop into a better person, giving him a chance to treat Aeroc right. I honestly believe it depends on the reader on whether they can accept this or not. There's no right point of view when it comes to this. Personally i find it hard to forgive.