i simply need more of the pairings i was SO invested with huey and doug + cromwell and benjamin I NEED A FULL MANGA FOR EACH
this is literally the best BL i have ever read. as someone who loves horror literature, this satisfied me to the brim. "satisfied" would be an understatement. i loved Frankenstein by Mary Shelley and Herbert West by Lovecraft and i did not expect to find something similar in the BL genre. i loved it so much it's insane—but i should have known better not to expect a happy ending. i got so invested i didn't even think of the ending and i felt violated by the end's angst. jesus.
mamiya, sada, and monkichi are so precious to me. what mamiya and sada had was unconventional but what they felt for each other was genuine. it's something more than love, i think, and it transcends life and death. i just love how mamiya, who's not used to affection at ALL, show his love for sada in his own clumsy ways. and throughout it all, sada was patient for him. i want to cry so bad but the ending was actually fitting for this story.
also, this is so My Chemical Romance coded! listened to them while reading and it made the experience great. i need a version of demolition lovers (the couple in the Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge) with sada and mamiya so bad TT sadly my digital art skills is shit hahaha
if anyone's wondering which MCR songs i played while reading, i'll drop a list. the lyrics are SO them istg
• This is the Best Day Ever
• Demolition Lovers
• My Way Through Home Is You
• The World Is Ugly
• Our Lady of Sorrows
• Helena
• Ghost of You
• Early Sunsets Over Monroeville
extras:
• It's Only Sex
• Bodys
by Car Seat Headrest LOL id add more from cshr but itd get so angsty
baby my body constantly betrays me i try to betray it but i only hurt myself
kim chaemin getting dick unintentionally is so funny to me
what is jigu on oh my god...... him constantly missing social cues makes me want to disappear and never be found again
awww sejun holding the wolf's face bc he's so worried they were hurt is so sweet i love me a concerned man who actually gives a fuck and cares for everyone sm
also despite of my other comment i found the timeskip so funny bro... it surprised me bc fym you can't move on from the homoerotic friendship u had in ur last year of high school it has been FOUR years, reiji, and u are a distinguished top of the class MED STUDENT from a top university LMAOOOOOOOOO STAND UPPPPPPPP
It was indeed not casual for him
actually, i think this is a more realistic bl manga at least compared to the others when it comes to the academic x delinquent trope. i've always wondered about what happens to the delinquents after highschool but they never show it and i just brush it off because, well, it's manga. it's a first (i think) where i got to see how both ended up after graduating bc mangas always end when they get together in hs. it's also realistic to me that they drifted off by the end of high school. after all, in reality, their differences are not easily overcome; their socioeconomic statuses are just way too different. the environment they were raised in, where they live, what they have is not something you can just overcome with love or whatsoever.
"i'm sure that if he wanted to, reiji could become anything." / "unlike the rest of us, he had so many paths available to him." I KINDA FELT THAT bc not everyone of us have the luxury to even dream of a good future and i know what it feels like to look at others my age who have so much to do while i've always felt like i have nothing ahead of me (mitski reference?!)
that said, ik i'm not supposed to take a manga THIS serious but i can't help it LMAO and i do agree that the romance felt rushed and akira is fucked in the head but that's the point I THINK
as a productive member of society, i am aware that this is all wrong morally and it is WRONG to fuck a serial killer.
as a certified freak however...