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imo. i didn't get a thing and had to reread many times, and there was also a page where i think they translated it wrongly? it's understandable, since kanji, hiragana and katagana is difficult to translate but the grammar... q n q other than that, i actually liked this manga. it's not something for those who dream of a romantic, fluffy love. it's for those who have felt what being cheated felt like, but also what misunderstanding is like. also, nowadays, honestly, there's a lot of relationships where the partners cheat on each other, be it the man or woman. i think this is wonderful because in the end, the seme still went back to the uke despite his work as a host. bonus? he isn't /that/ popular because he doesn't say he loves his clients, and only says it to the uke. to be frank, even i'd feel like hurting my partner if he were to ever do to me what the uke did, but also, that doesn't mean i wouldn't have whacked myself for doing shit to my partner's feelings. this whole manga is a mess of conflicting feelings, but it's a happy ending, so all's good for me. ╮(￣▽￣)╭

i just finished reading the first book of this story while i've read the second book (this one.) for quite a while already. all in all, even during the first time i read it with lack of knowledge on both characters, i really adored this manga. i prefer a fluffy and light read (comedy yaoi/shounen ai, mostly.) but this manga really stuck on me. it really drills it into your head about how even the person who never acts like they have went through a traumatizing experience (in this case, seeing your mother being raped by a man you probably trusted since he was touji's father's assistant.) could be right beside you, smiling so happily because you're beside them. it's a sad thing, because when you find out this hidden part of them, you just then realize how little you actually know them. this pairing has a long way to go in the yaoi world, and they are amazing at being together. thanks sensei, for being a miracle worker once again.

this manga overwhelmed me with so many emotions. i'm not joking, i've nearly cried while reading this and the reason why i didn't was because i paused quite a few times to rest my eyes from my screen and calm myself the fuck down.
the first story played with me so much, since honestly, i could see myself as hajime. hajime's character wasn't really horrible, in fact, he was endearing. he just needed to set his thoughts straight, otherwise, his feelings and such were all perfectly fine. it just fucking messed me up with how much pain the tachi (i forgot his name) had to go through and how much complicated feelings (anxiety to never be hated, fear, love, unportrayed near self-loath, etc.) that hajime had a chance of meeting because of the tachi.
the second story- now, that might as well be my life. i mostly take hajime's role as the younger one, but i could understand the desperateness of makoto to achieve familial recognition, and just simply another human's warmth and love. i salute souta loads for making it clear to makoto that it's okay to not meet anyone's expectations and that he still loves him regardless. it's so heart clenching, what the fuck? someone get me a souta. and that parrot. that parrot is damn adorable, saying "nice boy" to makoto and rubbing on him.
what i didn't like in here was probably just the way hajime and makoto's parents raised them both, by being biased and disrespecting their needs (hajime doesn't really need to be pampered much, they take it too far since he also does want to experience the life of a free child while makoto needs a bit more love and not to be blamed for merely trying to bond with hajime.). i also dislike how their mother is constantly looking down on makoto even though he's doing a great job at work. he might not be as successful/known (i get the view that their parents are very materialistic.) as hajime, but as an elite office worker, he's amazing (thank god souta noticed that and fell in love with him, giving him the love he needs.). other than that, everything was great. the workers (both boys and girls) and the models (except for the one that created a big scene and scolded the worker, though most people like that just need attention. on the other hand, rika was wonderful for giving up on hajime and is accepting of the tachi's feelings towards hajime.) were all so much more than simple background characters. they gave the main characters the push, support and conscious they needed. i love this manga.

damn adorable. (๑•ㅂ•)و✧ like, what even? i can't comprehend this cuteness. (〜￣△￣)〜 and am i the only one who sees hints of yandere-ish/possessiveness/sadistic streak-ish-ness-something for tsuchiya's character? yes, he does have the possessiveness anyone would, but the way the author portrayed him with those choice of words and the way his train of thoughts led around, it seemed as if the author made him a bit sadistic. not fully sadistic or physically sadistic, though (he's conscious of what mikuri is like, and doesn't test his boundaries or mikuri's loyalties towards him). also, the inking/coloring that was used during tsuchiya's pov kinda gave me another reason to think tsuchiya's a sadist.

it's really a lovely story but- damn it, at least an extra chapter, jesus. (╯°Д °)╯╧╧

i'm a fluffy and happy kind of person. why did the story end like that? Σ( ￣□￣||) kei-san, get your head back in life and not be so sentimental!! move on and hang around michio-san!! love isn't a feeling, it's a choice!! well, part of it, but don't choose to hurt yourself. （/TДT)/

wow, wow, wow. this story just gave an intense game maniac like me a hope of finding love. ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦)ノ and omg, the second story's main characters kind of remind me of junketsu drop's lead pairing!! but other than that, the story was so omg. ╮(￣▽￣)╭ and does anyone know whether the friends have a story for themseleves?

honestly, i've re-read this manga countless of times and everytime it never fails to make me get certain feelings all over the place. i see some people saying they don't like it, and that's okay, bcs really, this manga was aimed more towards the ones who prefer some bdsm during sexual intercourse rather than it being normal and just some slight ones where they only call names. i'm actually a heck of a masochist myself, so this manga is really fitting my preferences since it's not exactly spousal abuse, but it is indeed portraying a firm relationship based on the funs of monopolizing your lover, torturing/teasing/spoiling them rotten until the only thing they think about on a daily basis is you, you, you, playing with their feelings and forcing them to show you a part of themselves they'd rather never show to always be certain that they are /yours/ and not someone else's. others might think i'm being crazy, but some would understand what i mean. all in all, it's just a very nice and delicate s&m story. i've read many and this is indeed in my life of top 5 mangas in general.

i need more of the second story!!!! it's definitely my type of story where i'll just end up hating everyone & everything for a long long while but then in the end i'll be so happy & fluffy!! does anyone know where i can find either the raws or scanlations? raws are ok since im well in japanese & photos are actually great by themselves!!

one question on the first story: did ryouji forget about the food he was cooking before he jumped on akatsuki or??? ლ(´ڡ`ლ)