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i just reread, but when i first read this manhwa years ago, it was the first BL i had ever read (well, the first manhwa including 2 men was killing stalking, but that is def not a BL lol ⚆ _ ⚆). reading it again now feels kinda nostalgic (｡•‿•｡)♡ — it reminded me of how new and exciting the genre felt back then ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ even if i didn’t fully understand the tropes or dynamics yet ✧₊˚⊹(⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

im gonna say that the pretty boy most likely was ed by the bottom

so this series starts off with us following an omega who’s apparently lost his memories. it’s pretty obvious from the beginning that he’s the one misremembering what’s actually going on. a lot of the stuff he says doesn’t really line up with the situation he’s in, so it becomes clear he’s a super unreliable narrator. then as the story progresses and hits a major turning point, we finally get a flashback that shows what really happened before he got amnesia. honestly, that setup was necessary to keep readers interested, otherwise the whole thing would’ve just been insanely frustrating to get through.

i did feel like it dragged, though. it’s only 40 chapters, but whenever i start reading something, i’m always hoping for at least 80 because i love longer stories. that being said, this series somehow managed to cram a ton of content into those 40 chapters and made it feel way longer—whether that’s a good thing or not, i’m not totally sure. both of the main characters frustrated me in different ways, and honestly, i don’t think they were taking care of their son properly at all. like, be so for real. overall, the story was fine. not amazing, not terrible, just… fine. nothing to write home about.

also, a lot of people have issues with the fact that the two main characters are in a romantic relationship, and it’s between an uncle and his nephew. that part definitely confused me at first, and i feel like that might be due to translation. at the very start of the story, it’s mentioned that they’re not blood-related—it’s because of a remarriage, so technically it’s not incest. but that only gets clearly confirmed way later in the story, so if you missed that detail early on, the whole thing feels super uncomfortable.

as much as their dynamic is a little… questionable, there’s only a 10-year age gap and again, no actual incest, just a weird step-family situation. plus, the nephew never even had a relationship with his mother, who’s the step-sibling of the male lead/uncle.

overall, the story was just… meh. the topics were really heavy, which i can appreciate, but some of the main characters were just not my vibe. like, i’m glad they worked through everything, but i feel like there are better ways to handle characters with mental health struggles than how this story did. at times, it felt like the idea of suicide was treated way too lightly—and if it wasn’t being taken lightly, it was being used more as a manipulation tactic than shown as a real struggle people face. i don’t know, it just wasn’t for me. honestly, i kinda wish i hadn’t read it at all, but i still gave it a 4 out of 5 because i don’t think it’s bad—i’m sure some people really enjoy it. it just… wasn’t my cup of tea.

i never cry when i read stuff like this but especially the scene where his friends tell him that they’re happy he lived on… made me sob tbh. like… NO DUH! of COURSE they’re happy you lived!!! survivors guilt is such a horrible thing. i’m so glad he was able to heal.

the lack of the imprinting scene is actually downright diabolical Σ(っ°Д °;)っ

this was such a good read, i loved every second. the plot was super well done and both leads were really endearing. the dynamic between them was great, and i liked that we didn’t fully know what was going on because of the biased perspective. it kept me hooked, every chapter mattered, nothing dragged. i don’t think it should be classified as a horror manhwa though. i was worried about the lack of color at first, but when color did show up, it really stood out in a good way. i really enjoyed the ending because it felt like the most realistic but still happy one. the two of them were never going to both be free and happy in a world filled with war and anguish. being on the run forever, never knowing if you’ll see tomorrow, is hard—but it’s a small price they willingly pay for love. overall, i have no complaints, i just really enjoyed it.

this was so good. i (for some reason) thought there was 98 chapters so i thought i still had 4 more to read… i did not. literally my jaw dropped when i saw that it was the end and there were NO SIDE STORIES!! (other than the novel) what the freak!!! i’m sure they go to the states and get legally married but like dang i would’ve loved to see that drawn. why no drawn side storiesssss i cant believe it ended RIGHT at their relationship became official

can he only see the world as like a green hue? was it ever said why? was he just born this way? i really enjoyed the story i just am a bit slow lol

am i the only one who hates this guy? idk why he is portrayed as a good person when he’s an insufferable hypocrite. im SUPER tolerant to bad people, characters… whatever. but i think this peeved me extra because we’re supposed to think he’s a person who puts “others above himself” when in reality he puts his emotional burden on other people and then storms off when he doesn’t get his way. what an awful person holy fuck.

warning!! i used speech to text so the words may be slightly off: this was surprisingly deeper than I was anticipating. Initially, it just comes off as a simple revenge story, but the more that we progress through the development of the storyline, we learned that the main character yoohan/taemin is seeking revenge, not against the person itself per se, but is also seeking atonement for his own sins as he believes that he is ultimately the main person responsible for what has happened in his life. As we progress through the plot even more so it comes to fruition that upon the completion of this revenge plot, he plans to take his own life. It is never explicitly said, but it is clear through his actions and how we interact with the world that this is what he truly desires. Upon falling in love with jay, that begins to change. The end of this story is a call out to how Jay has become his reason to live. it also becomes known that the main character has always wanted to live, but kept looking for excuses to make it seem like he was forcing himself to be alive. He forced himself to pay off the debt. He forced himself to seek revenge. Obviously to a tone for his own sins and to seek vengeance in some semblance of the form, but also to give his life a purpose, as he was so desperately hoping to live even when he believed that he shouldn’t. he comes off as a very crabby and dry person, but it’s very clear through his actions that he is very considerate and caring of those around him. I was not anticipating enjoying this so much for the messages that were conveyed, but I think the author did a really good job of tying everything together along with allowing us to see how complex characters interact with the world around them. The main character is very well done and is written away that allows you to recognize that someone does not only have one version of reality that they’re living in, and that their version of reality is entirely reliant on their environment, surroundings, and ideals at the time. phenomenally done.