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the plot line is pretty confusing ngl (⊙…⊙ ) i have no idea how that ending even occurred?? but hey.. happy-ish ending i guess? i am very confused by it all but the art was very nice!!

this has sooo much smut and usually i read yaoi for the plot but DAMN these scenes lowkey did something for me idk this was rlly good (=・ω・=)

when i first read this, it was incomplete, and i had only read it because i thought the male lead was well put together (visually appealing lol). i read it not knowing that the story would be so complex. and i started reading it, and i never finished. years later, i have come back, and i’ve read the entire thing, and let me say—this is a masterpiece. i clearly have a soft spot in my heart for repeating timelines and the struggle against fate. the male lead at one point says something along the lines of how he doesn’t know if what he’s feeling is love, because it is such a disgusting obsession that he has, and so he doesn’t even know if he can categorize it as love. but this really stood out to me because i think that is love in its pierced form. i think we often idolize what love is and see it as a blooming emotion full of innocence, but the reality is, love is an emotion that is disgusting at its core, as it can cause people to lose all sense of humanity—which is exactly what happens in the story. he lost himself time and time again because he was obsessed with changing fate and changing the timeline. if he had just let everything play out sufficiently, then they probably would’ve gotten this ending a lot sooner. i am very satisfied with the ending. i know there’s a lot of people out there that would’ve wished for an even happier ending, but i honestly feel like this ending was ideal. even when i thought the ending was just an ending where they were both together in the afterlife, i was satisfied with that—but knowing that they get to repeat this hopefully final life, or never-ending lifetimes with each other, is very heartwarming. it makes the title being “my reason to die” even more heartbreaking. i knew that when she was talking about him seeing the movies and him trying the ice cream, she was only saying “you,” and she wasn’t saying “we.” as much as she says she doesn’t intend for herself to die, she went into that fight knowing that she would sacrifice herself for him, as he had sacrificed himself for her hundreds of times, i’m sure. there was one point where we saw a calendar, and it looked like he had almost lived 4000 times—so i don’t know how many times, how many lifetimes they went through, but i am flabbergasted. i am really satisfied with the ending, and this is a manhwa that i believe deserves a drama adaptation. i feel like it would be really successful. beautifully done, amazing character arcs—i have genuinely no complaints. the art was beautiful through and through.

i just reread, but when i first read this manhwa years ago, it was the first BL i had ever read (well, the first manhwa including 2 men was killing stalking, but that is def not a BL lol ⚆ _ ⚆). reading it again now feels kinda nostalgic (｡•‿•｡)♡ — it reminded me of how new and exciting the genre felt back then ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ even if i didn’t fully understand the tropes or dynamics yet ✧₊˚⊹(⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)

im gonna say that the pretty boy most likely was ed by the bottom

so this series starts off with us following an omega who’s apparently lost his memories. it’s pretty obvious from the beginning that he’s the one misremembering what’s actually going on. a lot of the stuff he says doesn’t really line up with the situation he’s in, so it becomes clear he’s a super unreliable narrator. then as the story progresses and hits a major turning point, we finally get a flashback that shows what really happened before he got amnesia. honestly, that setup was necessary to keep readers interested, otherwise the whole thing would’ve just been insanely frustrating to get through.

i did feel like it dragged, though. it’s only 40 chapters, but whenever i start reading something, i’m always hoping for at least 80 because i love longer stories. that being said, this series somehow managed to cram a ton of content into those 40 chapters and made it feel way longer—whether that’s a good thing or not, i’m not totally sure. both of the main characters frustrated me in different ways, and honestly, i don’t think they were taking care of their son properly at all. like, be so for real. overall, the story was fine. not amazing, not terrible, just… fine. nothing to write home about.

also, a lot of people have issues with the fact that the two main characters are in a romantic relationship, and it’s between an uncle and his nephew. that part definitely confused me at first, and i feel like that might be due to translation. at the very start of the story, it’s mentioned that they’re not blood-related—it’s because of a remarriage, so technically it’s not incest. but that only gets clearly confirmed way later in the story, so if you missed that detail early on, the whole thing feels super uncomfortable.

as much as their dynamic is a little… questionable, there’s only a 10-year age gap and again, no actual incest, just a weird step-family situation. plus, the nephew never even had a relationship with his mother, who’s the step-sibling of the male lead/uncle.

overall, the story was just… meh. the topics were really heavy, which i can appreciate, but some of the main characters were just not my vibe. like, i’m glad they worked through everything, but i feel like there are better ways to handle characters with mental health struggles than how this story did. at times, it felt like the idea of suicide was treated way too lightly—and if it wasn’t being taken lightly, it was being used more as a manipulation tactic than shown as a real struggle people face. i don’t know, it just wasn’t for me. honestly, i kinda wish i hadn’t read it at all, but i still gave it a 4 out of 5 because i don’t think it’s bad—i’m sure some people really enjoy it. it just… wasn’t my cup of tea.

i never cry when i read stuff like this but especially the scene where his friends tell him that they’re happy he lived on… made me sob tbh. like… NO DUH! of COURSE they’re happy you lived!!! survivors guilt is such a horrible thing. i’m so glad he was able to heal.

the lack of the imprinting scene is actually downright diabolical Σ(っ°Д °;)っ

this was such a good read, i loved every second. the plot was super well done and both leads were really endearing. the dynamic between them was great, and i liked that we didn’t fully know what was going on because of the biased perspective. it kept me hooked, every chapter mattered, nothing dragged. i don’t think it should be classified as a horror manhwa though. i was worried about the lack of color at first, but when color did show up, it really stood out in a good way. i really enjoyed the ending because it felt like the most realistic but still happy one. the two of them were never going to both be free and happy in a world filled with war and anguish. being on the run forever, never knowing if you’ll see tomorrow, is hard—but it’s a small price they willingly pay for love. overall, i have no complaints, i just really enjoyed it.

this was so good. i (for some reason) thought there was 98 chapters so i thought i still had 4 more to read… i did not. literally my jaw dropped when i saw that it was the end and there were NO SIDE STORIES!! (other than the novel) what the freak!!! i’m sure they go to the states and get legally married but like dang i would’ve loved to see that drawn. why no drawn side storiesssss i cant believe it ended RIGHT at their relationship became official