Hestia’s inner dialogue about the reality of being in a novel, her purpose in life solely that of Kael, and her not having any thought of her future are very important lines that builds up to her ‘attempt’ scene. It’s clear that if her purpose and goals (for Kael) were to crumble she’ll be left struggling why she even exist which was mentioned a lot (in the novel). I wish to see soon, that she truly starts to have her own dreams and own self identity without having to question the world she’s in or if it is okay to truly live in what she believed as ‘just a novel’.