Pretty sure Paula isnt ugly. The constant beating when she was a child made her look ugly. Also this is an era where "freckles" isnt considered alluring(typical shoujo trope). Also lets be honest a malnurished baby IS ugly.
The 3rd child is pretty much a plot device so let's all look another way (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ. But that's pretty much a good basis how Paula could look if she is confident
I really love the tension my gosshhh!!!
Altho Im dreading the ending(its only biggest flaw) everything is so perrffectt. I really hope they tweak that one part from the novel. ANYWAYS THE TOXIC SMUT IS NEEAARR GUYYSS