I found it on Tappytoon and saw it was short, and since I watch adds every day I had more than enough points to buy the whole thing. So I did.
And boy. Oh boy was I for a ride I was not expecting.
But I regret nothing ╮(￣▽￣)╭
This isn't a love story, and it never tried to be. This is the story of a psychopath who becomes obsessed with someone who genuinely fell for them, and the terrible outcome that follows. I'm just very proud that (spoilers ahead) Kyung-Soo was capable of deciding to walk away, even if it took him witnessing what he feared was Yule's actual death to do it.
Still, throughout the story, no matter how many times he ran, it seems that he always believed he would eventually go back. It's hard to tell if this isn't the case, either.
Kyung-Soo fell for his sad eyes, and when they meet again at the end, Yule's eyes are sadder than ever. But at least he has a heartbeat now. At least he's truly terrified of Kyung-Soo dying for real, and yet he settled for watching from a distance instead of kidnapping him and locking him away like he tried in the past.
With the side-stories we're told that if Yule had ended up locked away in a mental hospital, Kyung-Soo still would've been miserable. He wouldn't have been able to forget him had he stayed with Dong-Hyuk, and he wouldn't have felt (been) free had he stayed with Geon. It's as if his connection with Yule can never truly be broken. So running away isn't an option.
Since this is a work of fiction, I'm allowing myself to hope, especially after that scene at the hospital, that if they get back together again, Kyung-Soo will finally get to be happy. The past cannot be erased, and it shouldn't be forgotten, but if Yule is always going to be a part of his life, at least he can be there and make him feel good. He already tried to wash the dishes back when he had no empathy whatsoever. Now that he can remember his nightmares, I'm sure he'll appreciate the hand that pats his head in the night even more.
At least, that's what I want to think.
Maplemarsh, I hope your knees (and all the rest of you lol) get better soon!
Thank you so much for uploading this, I'm going straight to Lezhin though I'm pretty broke but I'll try to give some love to the author of this wonderful story!
Also, I'm glad to learn I wasn't the only one who downloaded Mystic Messenger again after the quarantine started (￣∇￣")
Dojin after hearing his dear omega probably won't be able to have any more children: OoH noO, what if he's sAD??? ┗( T﹏T )┛
Hye-sung after hearing he probably won't be able to get pregnant: (⊙…⊙ ) >> (=・ω・=) >> ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄ >> = sex without condoms!!!! (≧∀≦)
Ah my sweet child, I love him <3
i guess he is sad even tho he said that
I'm sure he was! His expression when he first heard it was pretty damn heartbreaking, the poor thing, but I'm glad he was able to look at the bright side of it all ╮(￣▽￣)╭
what is happening?????? Why am I getting my heart broken????????? Chanwoo and MD were supposed to be unproblematic and happy enjoying their kinks in love, not doing this shit and playing with my feelings ┗( T﹏T )┛
Fuck the step-brother, and fuck the step-father that never knew how to handle the situation properly for either of the kids. Because they were just kids! Someone should've talked to them, for fuck's sake, damn incompetent adults!
Still, by now, the step-brother is a fucking adult. He should get therapy and talk to his father, not project all his anger and jealousy onto someone who never did anything wrong. Because Suk-yun has never done anything wrong in life and he must be protected at all costs!
MAH POOR BABY DOES NOT DESERVE ALL THAT GUILT AND ANXIETY, GODDAMN IT!
Beautifully, heartbreakingly realistic, my stomach sunk the moment (spoiler ahead) his mother came asking where his father was, saying he wasn't answering the phone.
Because my dad didn't pick up the phone either.
And my heart still races from time to time when my loved ones don't answer after I try more than once.
I rarely cry with manga, but I cried when his father talked to him on his dream. And I feel like crying again as I write this... but I'm so glad I read it. The art is gorgeous, the jokes are hilarious, and their relationship feels so genuine.
I would love to read more.
Awwww, I hope you're doing better, hun!
Thank you! I think I am, bit by bit :)
When I started reading this not long ago there were only 15 chapters so when I reached the end of it I was getting really frustrated but I pressed next and chaptTER 16 WAS OUT I WAS SO HAPPY!!!
Thank you so much for your hard work in uploading this!!
Also, YES, PUPPY-KUN, YOU'RE THE BEST! And everything about their relationship has been so... sane? Respectful?? Fucking hot??? They're literally doing pet-play but you can tell this seme values and cares about his uke more than half the other semes out there... I adore this!
This is a bit infuriating. For once, I'm actually rooting for a girl to get together with the (uke) main character. Like, I'm sorry, but the seme IS taking advantage of him. Even if later on the uke was clearly enjoying it or whatever, the truth is that the seme slept with him when he was super drunk and ignored him every time he asked him to stop and said he didn't want to. It has made me quite uncomfortable, to be honest. Sure, the uke thinks the guy is handsome, but he isn't interested in him that way. He liked Park Aerum since the moment he first saw her, and he was happy about going out with her. He likes her, for real. She's his type.
The fucking seme isn't. Manipulative son of a bitch that everyone calls a puppy just because his smile is nice. Man, my darling Junghyun, please get out of there...