Switch from first person to third person, idk I'm an amateur writer too but the grammar and writing part you can have a proof reader for that! So you don't have to worry about it so much.

I would've begged my parents to let me do volleyball, I've always wanted to train for volleyball even to the point of actual matches but my parents didn't like the fact i had to wear shorts so i never even got the chance to get close to my dream and i still regret it.
Hey guys... Well I have this friends for three years. I'm the type of friend who always "Give" something for a friend like giving food, things. This friend of mine is becoming more cold to me... I'm the one who's always starting a conversation with her but she's always giving me an half-assed reply like "Lol, ikr, LMAO" and that's it! End of conver......
I am planning to make my own BL novel