Rule one of harboring a secret crush: never get your hopes up. Especially if your crush is the nices...
Show to bf. Why? The ml or seme in this has my heart he is so gentle and not at all malice or manipulative in any way. Like I was expecting him to be a playboy since he was popular and always surrounded by girls and is so handsome, but in reality he’s just nice to everyone which makes it hard I know but something about him is so alluring and attractive his calm energy and also he’s really cute.