
im telling you uenoyama is just so half baked to me and it's a shame because literally everyone has a fleshed out story and he's the literal main character and yet nothing about him really stands out. and idgaf if this is an unpopular opinion, he's in the cuck chair and mafuyu is with shizuragi. like i have found uenoyama's piss poor communication skills and his SEVERELY bad timing so irritating the entire series, i just wish mafuyu was with hiiragi & shizu instead. hell, mafuyu with hiiragi is so good.
i have re-read given over and over, trying to give it the benefit of the doubt and instead it continues to irritate me, and it's only just uenoyama. i'm so tired of the forced miscommunication in order to keep the plot going and I'm also very irritated at the AUTHOR and the FANS who keep bringing up yuki. like obviously the fans are annoying, but the author has developed yuki and mafuyu so much and just keeps refusing to build mafuyu and ue's relationship because instead they prioritized everyone else. and it's so frustrating because uenoyama is the damn main character and he gets on my nerves

everyone mad at mafuyu are dumb. like just straight up dumb. not only had mafuyu moved on from yuki, but it's like the CORE part that he moved on and had liked uenoyama pretty early.
Obviously he processes his grief slowly, but he still decided to actually move on with his life, that's why months later he got into a relationship with uenoyama.
And IN FACT I THINK UENOYAMA IS MORE FLAWED, especially in the whole situation. My biggest pet peeve with this series is that Uenoyama finished the song Yuki made for Mafuyu. In the process, he got close to Hiiragi & Shizu and then AVOIDED Mafuyu to finish the song. You know. The EXACTTTTT same thing Yuki did before he DIED. Before he KILLED himself.
And people had the audacity to get mad at Mafuyu for being like "Hey my boyfriend is avoiding me and I don't want music to be the reason my SECOND relationship ends." LIKE WHAT???? HIS BOYFRIEND WAS ACTIVELY AVOIDING HIM AND MAFUYU WAS RIGHTFULLY FRUSTRATED. ESPECIALLY, because this is the same EXACT behavior Yuki did before they got into a HUGE fight and then YUKI KILLED HIMSELF.
And guys PLEASE, from the very beginning, it's like Mafuyu was able to handle and move on with Yuki's death and the only people who want to keep remembering Yuki is literally everyone BUT Mafuyu !!! Of course he's going to miss Yuki because that's his first love, childhood friend, and his best friend. But he legitimately has had feelings for Uenoyama from the beginning of this manga and has romantically LONG MOVED ON FROM YUKI.
Especially the fact that Uenoyama feels obligated to remind Mafuyu of Yuki and complete this song Yuki made. He DOESN'T NEED TO DO THIS. In fact I still don't understand why the fuck he agreed. Because if he refused, he was still going to play for Hiiragi and Shizu anyways !!!!!!!! This whole plot line doing that was just awkward and clearly only made for angst once again.
I feel like I'm going insane because the Mafuyu hate is literally so stupid to me and doesn't make any sense. Because he OUT OF EVERYONE, moved on from Yuki pretty early on in the story. By the time he meets and is enthralled by Uenoyama, he ALREADY MOVED ON. So don't give me crap about how he can't move on because he literally has.
ik this isn't like plot heavy bc it's mostly just porn, but i actually do like reading the story part. and to this day, i eat up the angst of the president dude akemi with his bf itome. esp bc i was reading on mrm (which missed like 10 chapters) so now that i know that akemi dated itome's brother? oooh girl.....that's a level of pain i didn't even think we would've gotten. and how much i love angst and one sided love <///3
omg especially when recalling in the early chapters where akemi told toono that he doesn't need to have feelings for whoever he dates, he can just develop feelings after they date. such early foreshadowing <3
and not even kidding no matter how many times i read this i still hate toono lmao like he's just so boring and kinda has like zero qualities lol which is really funny bc i've grown to really like kashima, yacchan, and tamura, the people the most around toono. and i honestly don't think that toono deserves kashima, one of the only characters who hasn't done anything wrong, so i'm going to reassign him to someone new. fuck it we ball, kashima x itome OR kashima x tamura.
now that i'm thinking on it, kashima is def more willing to have sex so I say he should have sex with tamura and basically brat tame him <3<3 i think they would at least be an interesting pair.
and surprisingly i really like yuri and fujisaki, especially top yuri. but honestly if they don't become endgame i think it would be fun to put him with kashima too. i think i just want kashima passed around lol