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Does anyone know where I can find the raws?

Thank you so much for starting this new project, I've been waiting a long time for someone to translate it
Both the art and the plot look great

Do you know if there is any translation of the novel?

I've actually already written this sort of detailed summary under a reader's comment, however, noticing that many are having difficulty with the events and the timeline, I decided to publish it again as a comment, in the hope that it will clarify your doubts.

Damon/Jiwoon (alpha recessive) met Minjae during high school. Minjae greatly admired Damon for his pottery work. And it's precisely for these works that Minjae decides to follow Damon in the same college.
Damon, who over the years had begun to feel feelings towards Minjae, proposes to the latter a relationship without commitment, based on sex. Over the course of the last chapters we discover that Damon's intention was actually much more serious, to the point of giving up the possibility of not suffering during his ruts (in this universe, it seems that for recessive alphas ruts are very irregular and lead to severe pain/fever etc.). He hoped he could find a way to be a "real alpha" worthy of Minjae's love.
What happens is that suddenly and without any explanation Minjae decides to shut everything down and change department as well. While in the prequel we see that Minjae breaks up with Damon because he realizes that his was not the best behaviour towards the alpha (in fact Minjae had approached Damon and then accepted that type of relationship only for Jiwoon's talent in pottery. He hoped that by getting closer to him, his art would also improve, when in reality it only worsened that sense of inferiority he felt towards him), in DYSLM? we see Damon blame this sort of breakup on his choice to label their relationship as "friends with benefits."

From then on Damon will suffer an artist's block which he is unable to overcome for the next five years. In his art he expressed the desire to find a person to love and who would love him. A person with whom he would have shared the mark and life (in this universe alphas are born with some sort of mark on a part of their body. The moment they bond with someone, not only that mark takes shape like e.g. some flowers, but it also transfers, in the exact same place, onto the partner's body). And now that the person he loved – a feeling he was convinced he reciprocated – had left him and run away without any explanation, he falls into this sort of dark, lightless hole.

He then decides to go to England to try to forget. And this is where he meets Colton for the first time ever: in an almost hidden bar, which Damon enters out of curiosity and between one thing and another, the two end up spending the night together, using each other to try to forget the pain that was filling their head and their heart.

Some time passes and the two meet again, without being aware of the fact that some time ago they had spent the night together. In this episode we see Colton together with his boss, participate in an exhibition organized by a very rich and well-known professor in the ambient. Colton works in the field of art management and his company is involved in organizing exhibitions and shows, and together with many others, has been invited to observe the works and maybe offer the pottery artwork artist the possibility of exhibiting his handiworks in their galleries.
Suddenly Damon enters the scene, who was actually busy with a sort of university ceremony, interrupted by the professor's (the exhibition's organizer) constant nagging. Damon, very elegantly, practically makes the professor look like shit. In fact, the man had organized this show, using Damon's works, without even his consent with the ultimate goal of taking him to bed.

Colton remains impressed more than his art, by Damon, as he will declare to the latter, privately, once the exhibition is over. And that really hits Damon, who was only ever seen for his art. Everyone ignored the fact that there was a person behind those works, consequently even his own opinions were not taken into consideration (just as the professor in this case simply decided to ignore his will and exhibit his works anyway). So this meeting was very significant.

We now come to the current timeline.
Damon discovers by chance the company in which Minjae works (of which Colton is the director) and without thinking twice he throws himself on the possibility of seeing him again, taking advantage of the fact that the agency had tried to contact him several times for the possibility of showing his works in their galleries.
What happens is a bit unfortunate, the result of a desperate man who can't get himself off the bottom he's been hitting for years now. To the point that while drunk, he tries to mark Minjae, coming to his senses just in time.
Meanwhile Colton had noticed the bizarre situation between the two. And after the meeting with Jinwoo's manager (Damon has always hidden his identity and had therefore sent the manager to impersonate him), which ended badly because Colton was aware of Damon's actual identity. So the two organize a second meeting (in private) to discuss the upcoming exhibition. What happens is not exactly explained, but practically Colton realizes that Damon has done something to his employee Minjae, loses his temper, binds him and releases his hormones (which risk suffocating Damon, Colton being a dominant alpha).
However, this leads Damon not to participate in an important work meeting and ends up losing his place in the line up of the exhibition (which Colton entrusts to Minjae lol).

Feeling guilty, Colton reaches Damon, who had returned to England after the mess and fate wants the two to meet again in the same bar where they met for the very first time. The two end up spending the night together. It's on this basis that they enter into the contract mentioned in the first chapters. The rest of the current events I think is quite clear.

The last thing to point out is what prompted Colton to assault Damon which is his hatred for alphas due to his father.
Long sport story, when he was a child Colton lost his mother due to his failing health. The father, deeply in love with his wife, blames his son Colton for her death and from that moment he will no longer want to have anything to do with his son. He shifts the responsibility for his care onto a man, Dylan. The only adult Colton can count on. Very soon, however, he discovers that the father is violent with Dylan (for which the child begins to have feelings). In short, when he gets older he first discovers that Dylan is madly in love with his father and that the main reason why he had always been close to Colton was because he was his only foothold to convince his beloved to stay with him + growing up Colton he looks more and more like his father and Dylan sees in him the possibility of receiving that love always desired by his father.
Another aspect to underline is Colton's constant fear of being able to be similar to his father in his attitudes towards him (he has always feared the side of himself that comes out during sex, his being a dom [BDSM]).
So basically he does what he does because he sees in Damon's attitude the father and what he fears he might be.