(Im going to assume you're a gay man here, correct me if Im wrong.) What you're going through is internalized homophobia, nearly every bi, gay and lesbian have gone through this. You'll get over it soon, but for now, just try to read one of your favourite genres but make it bl? For example, if you like reading horror, read a horror bl. You could al...... 1 reply
Sadistic main character, who's also aromantic. As a person who is a sadist and aromantic, I'd love to see the main character making others feel miserable, and not being attracted to someone who will "change" them. 2 reply
did listen to j rock or j pop
