This is gorgeous. This is magnificent. The stuff of legends. The originator of a great meme. Good job.
So many people are acting as if Yeon-ho is being stupid for telling him that he will pay back the 1 billion won, but you have to understand it from his perspective.
His relationship with Kwon has been nothing but transactional from the start.
Kwon acted as his sponsor to bolster his acting career, and in exchange, Yeon-ho was to pretend as if they were in a relationship and retrieve the USB for Kwon.
Even though he knew this from the start, Yeon-ho found himself catching feelings but once Kwon re-established the nature of their relationship, Yeon-ho was forced to take a look at reality.
He never was anything more than a pawn in Kwon's game, an object used to fulfill an objective that Kwon had been seeking for years.
For someone like Yeon-ho, who's never really had anyone to truly care for him and love him, Kwon's kindness was something he clung onto because it was all he had, and for once, it made him feel loved and made him feel special. But, to be reminded that it was all a ruse sort of reaffirms his life experiences and has hardened him incredibly.
He's scared to trust once more. He's scared to be vulnerable again. He's scared to allow himself to be swayed and fooled by this kindness again because if the first time was transactional, why would this situation be any different?
He doesn't want to owe Kwon anything. He doesn't want to have to rely on him in exchange for anything else.
In his mind, in order to be fully be free of him and not continue this transactional relationship, he has to cut complete ties with him, and the last thing tying them together is the 1 billion won.
I hope this makes sense lol
I love the way you wrote this! So true and it also helped me understand the actions of YO a bit more thanks to u!
It hurts a lot bc YO been abused since his teens, his mom left because she couldn't pay off the debt, his father was doing as he wished and kept borrowing money and then he died, his brother who lives in his own world and doesn't really help out YO, ... and the loanshark that has been abusing him mentally and physically.
Ofc YO would fall for JH because he was the first to care about him, even if that was all just an act it was for some time real for YO. He really thought that someone cared about him and would love him... he also had the thoughts that he hoped would not be confirmed by JH (that JH had a motive why he treats him this way, which in the end was true) that he used him as a pawn to get the USB. I also find it so twisting that JH asked for the USB after YO told him that he has feelings for him... JH really did manipulate him to get what he wanted. I think that is why JH was so angry when YO was in that club at CH 59. He didn't get the USB with all the efforts and manipulation so he then raped YO and said such hurtful things to him...
YO being treated like that by JH at CH 60 left mental scars, he also asked again if he might have feelings after giving him the USB... But yet again no feelings. He then tried to confirm it again after him fainting and going to JH office to refuse the proposal, and then a third time at the hospital where he was rescued by JH he asked again for the reasons of him acting this way. After hearing a clear answer that JH has no single romantic feeling for YO, he then kinda made a mental note and wanted to leave. He wanted to go home, he did not want to be looked after and feel independent to JH. So when he was on his way home he started to cry and question the actions of JH and why he does it all now. He knows those are no romantic feelings and actions so why does JH keep acting this way.
Spoiler (for 71-72):
I think YO then thinks JH is after his body or something else, that is why it felt so easy for YO to propose to sell his body to JH for the 1 billion.
It really broke my heart when YO accepted himself as a sex toy and was OK to sell his body... it really was so hurtful to read this part. It is understandable why he thinks that way, he was abused since young and JH used him for a long time as a sex toy too and not only the loanshark and JH treated him that way but also his college wanted to screw him and use him. YO really thinks that he is nothing but an object to use... He never got love from his parents, his mom left him alone after all. I really think that she might come back in future chapters ... I have this feeling she might. Or JH does something for her to come since JH wants to meet up three times with YO so YO can "pay off" that 1bil debt.
Also I might be reading too much into it but at CH 72 when JH was in the restaurant waiting for YO and telling him to come in, his eyes were a bit reddish and the underside had a shadow. Idk maybe that is just the lightning of that room but for a moment I thought it was bc he might have cried over the one week after seeing that video. Or I am reading way too much into it...
Also we saw thus far 3 scenes/panels where JH was in his teens and YO a 7 year old... The first scene was when JH almost drove over YO and remembered YO as a child back then. The second time when YO and JH are near the sea visiting the house, YO remembers something and has a déjà vu, so we saw YO and JH watching a movie at the same house and sofa. And a third time at 60.5 author's notes we see JH piggybacking YO on his back near the beach...
Their past might also get a chapter or two... Maybe... I do hope so because it would be interesting to see if YO was a happy child or an anxious one.. And also curious to see if JH was more happy because his mom was still alive...
Hi! OMG! I'm so glad you mentioned JH's eyes in cap. 72 because I noticed it too but then feared that maybe I'm reading too much into it, maybe hoping too much...? Hehe. I think maybe JH was busy the past week dealing with the loanshark and those men in the video? Of course the video could've been disturbing him greatly as well, especially since he, too, contributed to YO's distress that night.
Also, I was hoping they have photos from when they were kids. Maybe JH's mom took photos when YO and JH were at her home? But some chapters would be better.
No way!! U too!!!
Yes the expressions are so realistic. Especially the one face YO makes when he looks at the paper at CH 72, he looks so done with life and has no more hope in him.
And yes JH looks like he been not sleeping for that one week where he didn't see YO!
Yes! I hope they have pictures when they were younger, they also made some pictures for Christmas... I wonder if YO threw them away or still holds it close to him (in a wallet or behind his phone case). Wonder if JH has it somewhere too....
I actually mentioned the photostrip from Christmas in my latest comment: https://www.mangago.zone/home/mangatopic/14617408/ Hahaha. JH hardly ever sees YO these days, so I wonder if he looks at the photo sometimes. I kind of doubt it crosses even YO's mind that he has that photo.
Do you ever think about the watch that YO gave him? I'm sad he's only ever put it on once. :( I don't care about JH's cologne/perfume. That was a boring gift. Hehehehe.
I'm very sad my reply that I wrote a few hours ago is not visible :'(
I forgot what I wrote so I'll try to remember again!:
Yes, YO for sure does not care or even forgot that he has the perfume or the Christmas photostrip. If someone you loved hurt you so much that you just want to never see them again, you for sure will also try to get rid of the items that remind you of that person. Especially if the break apart was an ugly one. I do wonder if YO threw it away or just totally forgot about it. Not sure what he would do with the perfume doe...
I'm sure JH will never wear the watch that YO gave him as they are right now. He is too stubborn and has too big of an ego to do something like this (for now). I'm sure YO won't accept the love confession right away and only then JH will try to hang on the items that remind him of YO. He will for sure then wear the watch and keep looking at the photos!
Idk why but I think YO and JH will be apart for a while after those three meet ups, YO is too heartbroken and unstable to jump into a relationship so fast. He needs time to heal and find himself again. JH ofc will be miserable and I think he will try to seek out YO and try to get back into contact, he will also maybe wear the watch...
It would be so bittersweet if they meet near the beach again after being apart for some time, and then YO will tell him his reply to the love confession... I think smth like this would happen. I hope at least. Rushing them to be together would feel so forced...
Why do we keep having the same ideas? Hahaha. Cause I always imagine them having a re-encounter at some beach after having spent years apart. I just feel like the beach means something to them. JH said he likes it and he must have played with a young YO at that beach they visited in season 2. YO recalls having spent plenty of times at the beach when he was young.
genius minds think alike ig...
I'm glad about the comments and conversations we have! I feel so much more at ease to take apart the story and analyse it and also read the thoughts of others. It helped me understand YO more as well because I was not sure what to think of this BL when CH 71 first came out. I too was a bit upset that YO said those things and sold his body to JH... But after reading some comments and also reading some chapters from season two again, it all made so much sense why YO reacted that way. So I would like to thank you again for your helpful comments TT
Also it has been months since I read season one and two so rereading helped me understand the choices of YO too... The scariest was CH 30 to 33, like JH was reallllyy manipulative, it almost made me cry the way he talked to YO. JH was so rude too and you can really tell from the use of his words that he always saw YO as an object to use.... Man... But then there were those small moments where he was so worried or gentle with YO out of nowhere... AAAAA
Yes, the moment I saw that one flashback with the beach at CH 60 and also the beach house itself, I kinda thought it would be perfect if the beach would be the area where they finally find themselves together.
This story is a mess in the funniest way possible. It's definitely nothing to take seriously but it's a fun read!
I love Jiwoo so much. He's one of the greatest highlights of this story. I'm not really into the main couple as there is so much insecurity there that I can't feel relieved that they are finally together. It makes me really feel bad for Ho-in. That aside, Jiwoo is great and I want to see more of him.
Sadly, I'm used to weird content like this. In my opinion, I think the biggest crime this manga committed was claiming that the top's dick is "12 inches". Now, I'm no penis expert; after all, I am a woman, but I have decent knowledge of how measurements work. Have you ever held a ruler before? Yeah, most of those stop at twelve inches. Look at a ruler then look at this demonic entity they are claiming to be a penis. For even more clarity, look at a picture of a person holding a ruler and then look back at that thing. His dick nearly reaches his fucking chest. Even the bottom's penis size isn't accurate. That shit definitely bigger than six inches. But, even giving the author the benefit of the doubt and assuming that their penises are their respective sizes limp, it's still way too big. And again, that shit still almost reaches his chest, even when he's limp.
Idk, I may be wrong because I'm trying to work this out mentally at fucking 5 AM, but I don't think I'm wrong here. This shit is blasphemous!
Why bro STROKING his cock in front of the CHILDREN?! And then they ABANDONED THEIR KIDS TO GO DO SOME SHIT IN THE BATHROOM?! AND ONE OF THEM IS MARRIED?! Bro, they TRIPPING! Somebody call CPS PLEAAASE!