Welpp jooha described this story on point. It hurts even if it's good but it also good even though it hurts. I think i learned to accept the fact that he will never regain his memories and it's very selfish to wish for his memories back. What's happening now is okay because finally, he can start a new chapter of his life without suffering and being scared, without remembering the time when the world is very cruel to jooha.
I can't handle the cliffhangers( ꈨ ˙ ꈨ )