pearlywaters's experience ( All 6 )

ah yes, nothing like telling your daughter just after she got discharged from the hospital that she'll go to hell for committing suicide and that people suffer worse than her. she even said "inshallah you will" as if she was hoping that i go to hell. apparently nothing bad happened to me and she can fix whatever's going on in my mind. she hopes i d......   2 reply
18 03,2021
about being gay
just wanted to share ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶   reply
05 03,2021
i noticed that i usually talk about negative things this time i'll talk about something positive. i've always wanted to cut my hair but i was too scared to actually do it myself so i got my sisters to do it instead. it was the first time i actually got real pure confidence about how i look. my hair used to be really long and it usually went in fron......   2 reply
15 01,2021
this is just to give links to people and to help myself whenever i'm looking for these. it would help if anyone could recommend any different picrews so i could add it. also sorry if i end up putting a picrew twice. enjoy! ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~ https://picrew.me/image_maker/583804 https://picrew.me/image_maker/26311 https://picrew.me/image_maker/15......   4 reply
27 12,2020
about vent
"if you prayed, you wouldn't feel this way!" i'm pretty sure my mental health is making me lose faith in god but okay "please, if you die then i will die" as if that would make me feel better "be grateful for what you have, god gave you everything so don't feel this way" as if i can automatically stop being depressed when i realise how good my li......   1 reply
29 10,2020

pearlywaters's answer ( All 233 )

nobody understands me... they're all idiots.. i'm sick of all the alpha males acting like they own the place.. they're no match for me, a sigma.. but as a sigma..i'll go my own path and not waste time on them. #sigma #ligma #grindset #society society is fucked... all women want nowadays are big dick chads.. they don't want nice men.. whatever, at ......   reply
19 07,2021
i can't tell if this is genuine or not   1 reply
19 07,2021
i kinda do and don't get what you're saying. are you saying rape is a plot device??? you know you can make the love interest an asshole without using rape. why use rape as a plot device if you're going to horribly misrepresent it? you can have sexual contact without using rape. i do agree with how its kinda rude to assume you're a disgusting person......   1 reply
18 07,2021
when this girl who i originally had a bad opinion of tried to cheer me up. she told me that its normal to be how i am and she persistently complimented me. I basically instantly fell for her. i felt so bad because i had a dirty dream of her later.   reply
15 07,2021
TOSS YOUR DIRTY SHOES IN MY WASHING MACHINE HEART~   1 reply
15 07,2021

pearlywaters's question ( All 38 )

i wanted to play the game but it won't work with my old ass phone and trying to get it on mac is too complicated for me. i've seen people talk so much about it but the character that made me to download it is la signora. is it good for f2p players? why does it take up so much space?? and when is it coming on the switch?? are there any good alternatives for it?
20 07,2021
so my mother is quite mentally ableist and i was just wondering if asking if i hear voices in my head a form of gaslighting? like whenever i show symptoms of my mental illness, she asks if i hear voices. am i overreacting? is it gaslighting? i mean i already know my mum used to gaslight me and i can sort of grasp what it means to gaslight someone. is it just her being ableist, gaslighting or both? i get sorta paranoid when she asks that question especially because i still sometimes feel like none of my traumatic memories are real or "traumatic" and i'm sensitive/overreacting/ "crazy". i'm scared to go back to actually thinking that way. ugh i really don't know anymore. i don't think she's even intentionally gaslighting me haha. i really can't be bothered anymore. i'm scared. i think i'm in one of those times where i'm dangerously suicidal. so i also need advice on that. i'm scared.
29 05,2021
sometimes when i'm awake at night, i don't go on my phone and i just zone out for a while and when i snap out of it, i'm confused because i thought i was awake but it feels like i woke up and then there is my position in which i "wake up" in because i definitely wouldn't sleep like that. anyways this doesn't happen very often but i recently did it and i think i zoned for 2 or 3 hours which is really worrying me.
03 03,2021
ok so i kinda have this problem where if someone shows the slightest bit of appreciation for me, my heart goes badump and all that stuff yk. i sortaaa fell in love with my childhood bestfriend before (not really but i had fantasies about her). also there was this one bitch in my class, she seemed like a "quirky tiktok uwu" girl and she was lowkey rude and annoying. she noticed my self-esteem was quite low and i was an introvert so she tried to refute all the things i said about myself and told me to love myself. it was the first time i learned what an introvert was (ik i'm dumb), i thought something was wrong with me but it was just my mum and my sister making me insecure :) anyways bam few days later i get a sexual dream about her and end up feeling incredibly guilty. i really miss her tho and i wish i got to know her better :( anyways back on topic my best friend sent me a text "oh..." after i said that i have to stay at home again and i psychoanalysed it even though there was nothing to psychoanalyse and in my mind i said " this. this, right here. i'm marrying this girl" i feel sorry for my best friend- another problem i sorta have is when i feel like people are showing me too much love i end up ghosting them because i feel like i don't deserve them but then i just further prove my point that i really don't deserve them.
25 02,2021
about wechat
i really need help with verification, tell me which one you use and i'll send you the qr code. sorry i'm just really desperate lmao
24 02,2021