.... to keep his hands free to hold and support Aoi!!! He's growing up so well, and becoming such a good big brother! I'm so proud! And Matoba-san almost caught a heart attack from cuteness overload!!!
... And I'm beyond over it.
Furthermore, I just realized that this is going to get a whole lot worse before anything changes, so I'm officially tossing this to the side.
... In case anybody missed it.... How does Calligo have the ability to activate a symbol that he didn't put there? I thought only the symbol's Creator (Lux) would have the ability to control and activate it? ┑(￣Д ￣)┍ Now that we know he can control it, he's going to do to Hannah exactly what Lux did to her on the job (that one night when he was in a blind jealous rage.) He will torture Hannah to the point where she mindlessly gives in and rapes the hell out of her. And I refuse to sit here for that. (︶︿︶)＝凸
No, the symbol that Hanna has now is Caligo's. Her contract with Luxaria has been fulfilled when Hanna made her wish, so her contract symbol with Luxaria is no longer there. Few episodes back when she was completely broken and missing Luxaria, she made a contract with Caligo, in exchange for her losing her memories of Luxaria, that new symbol appeared then, so Caligo can freely manipulate the symbol to arouse Hanna. I just wish that Luxaria will come back to save her, because right now she'll likely be tortured by Caligo to get what he wants. She'll likely remember Lux little by little, when she does, I hope she'll wish for him to come back. I hope her powers is strong enough to save both of them.
Oh lawd ╥﹏╥ ...... Thank you for the explanation and a reminder. I will have no choice but to let this sit forgotten in my bookshelves to marinate for a several months (maybe till the end of the year), and then checking on it. I don't need this kind of heartache. There's enough going on in my life and in the world as it is already! （￣へ￣）
My beautiful little chickadee is blossoming and claiming her territory like the sexy little baddie she is! But my only disappointment with the author was the tiny little hickey that was left behind on Taeha's neck! Like what the heck is that?! ┑(￣Д ￣)┍ With the way that she latched onto his neck like he was the only drop of water in a dry-as-fuck desert, I expected a huge red spot and maybe some teeth marks! ლ(´ڡ`ლ) My girl (and her pussy) was hungry! And so are we!
Honestly I think its spot on, like haesoo would leave a hicky that small TRYING to leave a bigger one, its one of her cute sides haha
.... I feel you on that, and I considered it for her personality..... But I'm a primal and thirsty hoe! My ass got super excited and my instincts overrode all common sense, screaming "RAVAGE HIM!!!" (๑•ㅂ•)و✧ when she grabbed him in! She latched on with starving sucker fish energy, but it looks like a goldfish nibble! LMAO!!!
HAHAHA honestly, BECAUSE it was haesoo, it would be 10x better if she ever does in the future
Guwon's dick is giving me "Bad Dragon" vibes! ლ(´ڡ`ლ) (...If you know, you KNOW!
.... and I already caught up. What the fucking hell...
This poor girl has literally been GROOMED by pedophiles and predators since she was a child- which explains her current psychological state of having no personal boundaries, no sense of right or wrong, no sense of danger, and being hypersexualized through SA trauma. A drunk mother who abandoned her, no mention of a father, a grandmother that beats her every other day, and living in a village every day of her life (sometimes even multiple times a day) where sexual assault is "just another way of life".
And when I read during the chapters that the grandmother already made arrangements for one of the old predatory men in the village to drive her daughter for errands the next day, and got mad when she refused to go with the man, but take the bus instead- that tripped a major alarm for me. How the girl gets to and from her destination should not matter as long as she gets what her grandmother wants. Why is she pushing so hard to have her ride with that old man?! I was wondering why she didn't tell the grandmother right then and there why she didn't trust the man.... But given the grandmother's behavior and how she treats her, the girl already knows the grandmother will never protect her. What is going to piss me off about the grandmother is if we find out that she knows what has been happening to her granddaughter since she was a child, and all throughout her life as they lived in the village with all those predatory neighbors and nearby townsmen grooming and abusing her on a regular basis for all the years of her life that she has errands there. That she knew all the men in the region have been praying on her granddaughter and she lets it happen.... trading favors and ease of life for her daughter's safety and innocence, as long as her needs to get met. As far as I'm concerned, the entire village and everybody in it can burn to the ground.
This new man (the boyfriend) started off as just another piece of shit, but the character development written for him is turning out well. He is on his own healing journey with the granddaughter- him being her salvation, and her being the mirror through which he sees the negative and disgusting sides of himself, and wants to change and become a better man for her and himself. I am so proud of him.
I understand everybody's urges and wishes for her to just dump everybody and run off with him.... But trauma bonds are a hell of a thing to beat- especially once they've reached the level of Stockholm syndrome. As she said in earlier chapter- she felt like a dog that had been chained up its entire life. And even if the chain was taken off, the dog would still pace around in the same exact spot because it had never known freedom or anything beyond the space that it existed in. It would be too terrified to move out of that space. Add to that the fact that the grandma is the last remaining blood relative that she has, and the guilt of knowing that if it wasn't for the grandmother she would have been dead a long time ago- the girl is guilt-bound to stay loyal by that grandmother's side unless she is taken from there by force or the grandmother dies.
Unfortunately, I know this kind of crap all too well because I have literally lived it. There are some abusive elements to this girl's story that replicates my entire childhood history and into adulthood, and I can say from experience it is never easy to run and flee, not to even to save yourself. In some cases, a victim will literally die there if no one rescues them. Your mind can literally be turned into your own prison after years of mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical manipulation. Freedom itself can be extremely terrifying if its never been experienced and you will literally stay in the environment that's full of terror, abuse, pain, and fear because it's more consistent and comfortable because it's all you know. (This can be so damaging that the effects continue even after a victim has been freed, but in another form called "masochistic equilibrium", which can mess with your ability to move forward in life, form relationships, or reach for new opportunities.) It is extremely hard to break through and get past, but it is not impossible.
All I can say is this... The boyfriend is going to need a lot of patience and understanding to help her get past this and get her out of this town to safety.
Waiting to see how the story develops...
Hope you're doing OK now! I also had a similar childhood and left home when I was 20 when I met my now husband. He was 24. I still allowed my abusive mom and brother in my life until about 8 years ago, when I finally got the courage to cut them out of my life.
My husband and his dad have both been there for me every step of the way. I even have permanent nerve damage in my back from the kicks my mom would give me and went undiagnosed for Crohn's Disease for 6 years because she didn't care to take me to doctor.
My husband was the one who was like, "I think you need to see a doctor. You're really not looking like you're feeling well."
It has a positive ending.
i actually cried from the girl's back story and you pointed everything out so clearly.. I'm sorry to hear you that you were in some kind of the same situation as she is i hope you're healing..
Their post marriage life is just domestic shenanigans and cuteness! But I'm pissed as all fuck that the author decided to skip over the wedding experience and photos. That's what we as fans all hope for and cling to!
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...then it's definitely not over. There's just a little more after this. It sucks that the ending is so short and seemingly abrupt, but it checks out to the novel.
HOWEVER.... The story is moving so calmly and slowly that I'm literally falling asleep every time I pick it up. ╥﹏╥
....Or did Teaha make sure Heasoo was gone from the house before Minshit came over for him to "deal" with his ass? Or am I reading too much into it? Teaha did
say the night before that he took work off the next day just to spend the night over at her house.... but she still has work the next day. Is it wishful thinking to hope that he's protecting her from the ugliness of his well thought out dark plans?
That' what i was thinking too when i saw the shoes