ARGHH I"VE BEEN PUTTING THIS OFF FOR A WHILE AND I JUST CANT READ IT. I WANNA READ IT BUT I CANT. THE FIRST CHAPTERS ARE TOO REALISTIC. NGL IF MY LOVER WAS A JOURNALIST AND GOT CAUGHT UP IN A CIVIL WAR AND THERE WERE NO TRACES OF HIM FOR 5 YRS AND JUST LEFT HIS CAMERA I WOULD HAVE FORCED MYSELF TO MOVE ON FOR THE SAKE OF MY OWN SANITY.