I honestly didn't really understand this story all that good can someone explain it to me (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ
Okay, this is a yakuza story. The leader of a certain group is dying of cancer and he wants to make sure the men who pledged loyalty to him are taken care of so he makes a deal with another yakuza group head. This other guy has been lusting for the dying guy's biological son since he had seen him once before so in exchange for obtaining the son, he agrees to hire on the guys.
The son has been ignored by his dad most of his life and is not in any way a part of the criminal world but he wanted his attention, approval whatever, so he shows up at the exchange not knowing his beloved, aloof dad sold him off. The seme immediately rapes him thinking he can win the kid over with sex, but the kid is horrified, disgusted, traumatized by the rape and it pisses off the seme that his twisted attempt at wooing him doesn't work so he keeps raping him for months. Each time he asks if he's fallen in love with him yet. Yaoi logic doesn't apply here, for once, so the kid is like fk no, how could I ever love you? Then the bastard dad dies from what I hope was really painful prostate cancer. The uke has mixed feelings, he prob wishes his dad cared for him the way he did his underlings. In a moment of vulnerability he asks the seme for sex and the seme gives him gentle sex for the first time. They have more consensual sex afterwards provided that the seme says he'll be gentle but the uke tells him he won't fall in love with him but he is thankful he was there when he grieved for his dad.
The seme thinks it is a matter of time that the uke will fall in love for him when in reality the kids mind is slowly breaking, unraveling
Let me add one more thing...I don't think the rapist is actually a bad guy; he probably had a really hard, fk up life and honestly didn't know how to show real affection. He had no idea how to get this love interest to return his feelings. In his head he thinks a physical relationship =love. He thought he needed to break down this kid's barriers to get love but in reality he is breaking the kid's mind. He is only now realizing he should have just been kind and gentle from the get-go but it's too late, he's hurt his love interest too many times for forgiveness let alone a sane return of love and affection. No, the real bad guy in this story is the now dead father.
Yessss omg I feel like it’s been forever right my fellow yaoi fans (๑•ㅂ•)و✧