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does anyone have some really good Bl manga/manhuas ?
I would really appreciate it!
Thank you in advance!

so yesterday my 21 year old sister got drunk and she was getting mad because my mom asked her if my other 17 year old sister was drinking and she was looking at my mom like she was going to murder her behind her back. We were at the kitchen and my 21 year old sister was going really close to the knives, while my mom was there. I called her out about it and I told her "Hey, why are you looking at my mom like that? It's gross so stop" So I left to my room and I hear screaming between my mom and sister as usual and I hear my sister say "FINE I DON'T WANT TO LIVE HERE ANYMORE! GET OUT OF MY FACE! GO TO HELL DUMBASS!" and I got out and my mom was just standing there sadly and tearing up. I had enough so I went over to her and said "Why did you say that to my mom.?" and she said "GO TO HELL YOU FUCKING DUMBASS BITCH, WHY DONT YOU JUST GO WITH MOM!?" and I snapped. Like a trigger in my brain. I felt it. I felt like a new person. I was someone different. I wasn't kind like i used to anymore. I started screaming like a fucking demon to my 21 year old sister. I remember I said " DUMBASS? ME? SAYS THE ONE WHO COULDNT EVEN FUCKING PASS HIGHSCHOOL!" and my sister said "SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU LESBIAN! YOURE A FUCKING DISSAPOINTMENT TO THE FAMILY!" and I said back to her " SHUT THE FUCK UP WHOS THE DISSAPOINTMENT HERE? YOU GOT FUCKING HERBES AT 15 YEARS OLD AND YOURE ADDICTED TO FUCKING SEX! YOU FUCK GUYS LEGIT EVERY FUCKING WEEK! YOU SLUT!" and it kept going so like that and she got pissed so she went to my face and was rubbing her nose on me while screaming thinking i would get scared of her. So I did the opposite. I yelled at her so fucking loud. like- it was louder than her screaming and i kept on going and going. I was screaming louder than her the whole time sounding like a demon. so she shut up (keep in mind shes 21) and she just didnt have anything to say. So she decided to start hitting me in the nose and she was pushing me towards the light and I got her face and waked it with my nails and went to her eyes. So my 21 year old sister was going to punch me as hard as she could. My mom pushed her to the bed and said to her "YOURE 21 YEARS OLD AND YOUR GOING AGAINST YOUR 12 YEAR OLD SISTER?" and she was screaming at my mom again and my my 21 year old sister (lets call her J) had gotten a bottle of vodka next to her and was going to smack her on the head so I got in the way and slammed my 21 year old sister on the bed and slapped her. So J pushed me off the bed and waked me with the bottle on the face so ofc i started bleeding and got bruises everywhere. so she was close to knocking me out when my mom smacked her and threw J on the bed stopping her from doing more damage and J swung at my mom and J was attacking my mom. So I had to get her phone and call 911 and I was shaking and I couldnt breathe that well. and I almost passed out but I was worried about my mom so while on the phone with the police I got to J's face and started pushing it away from my moms face and said "YOU WILL NOT HURT MY FUCKING MOM" and the person who answered the 911 call was saying she was sending the police right away so I waited all bloody and shit by the window my mom still holding J back from doing me more damage. The cops took forever like- bruh- so my sister had gotten her fist and hit my mom so I had another trigger and I got the vodka bottle (of glass) and slammed it on my J's head. J fell on the floor bleeding. still conscious though and btw J was okay she was only bleeding and a little dizzy. so the cops got there and tazed J because she was on top of my mom hitting her. They put J in hand cuffs and they send paramedics to help my mom. But I kinda just passed out from blood loss i guess? So now J is in jail and I got a small reward from the cops and they told me that the way I acted was the right thing and they said that that happens when you care about someone.

So I'm fine lol but this legit happened yesterday I have PTSD now because of her and so does my other sisters except J ofc but my other sister M (17) was standing there blacking out because she said she was getting flashbacks from when J choked her and almost killed her. M did the same thing to her she got a vase and slammed it on her head. I was protecting my 8 year old sister,M, and my mom from my drunk 21 year old sister. So im being seen as the hero rn.

But I cant but feel like this is my fault that J is in jail because if I didnt call the cops she wouldnt be in Jail rn. Its hard thinking that this happened yesterday it feels unreal everyone is coming to visit me lol.

Even my aunt who hated me for some reason came and said she loved me and hoped I get better. So currently im chilling in my bed doing nothing on the computer.
Buh-bye!