tw/ csa, ptsd
i really understand him i was continuously r*ped for days by my step dad when i was 9 and it continued till my mum and him divorced it all started with one day he suddenly started to touch my chest i was confused or maybe too young understand i dont understand why it happened tho since my mum remarried right after my father passed away when i was literally 3 or 4 i had a nice rls with my ex step dad who used to spoil both my mum and me alot but then he started doing all this all of a sudden and i was too scared and confused to tell my mum anything. After they divorced i started living with my single mum and i used to lock myself in my room the whole day when she brought her bfs home even now im 18 and i still get anxiety attacks when any of my male friends or any guy in general touches me thinking they have some ill intentions istg even when im standing next to some guy on a city bus and our shoulders even rubs slightly that shit creeps me out i've came to absolutely despise physical contacts with men so it rly surprised me reading some of the comments some people really lack sympathy for people with ptsd
guysssss thank u so much for the nice comments im thankful and yes im in a better place now i asked my mum to let me join a girls only college this year i could only write this comment out here bcuz we're all strangers here ik i could never never share it with someone i meet irls, have a nice day <3
you on ur deathbed, taking your last breath and thinking bout how some romance novel ends??? that'd be me