I've been in mangago for i think almost 10 years, half of that as a guest, read a lot of good shits and the craziest, cringest shits. But most yaoi i read, well it's what most yaoi are, are about toxicity and how something as akin to love can come from something so cruel and hateful. I'm now at an age where I should be married and stuff but I'm now in this situationship w/someone married and crazy. Like how can I tolerate this shit? Like I can't rationalize this behavior at all. Now I'm thinking if all of those manga have affected me this much...