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I cried for ruri because it reminded me of when ignorant people try to give me advice for my anxiety and depression when they've never experienced either and it makes you feel useless

Everyone needs to stop being a bitch to taka like really he tries so hard but people keep putting him down (╬￣皿￣)凸 ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ

Does anyone have the feeling that Shun is exhibiting the early signs of depression?
Depression tuns in families and the way he was self-deprecating and acting so down makes me wonder if he himself is mirroring his father's own feelings of failure.

Not sure how to feel about this story.

I’m not a slut shamer...but it feels different in this situation. This isn’t like Yarichin Bitch Club. That freewheeling sex situation is perfectly fine. Here...it’s something else. It’s not about being true to yourself and being free to sleep with whoever you want...but running away from who and what you want because you are a coward and hurting others in your wake.

Yes we have the story from the seme's pov so we are more sympathetic to Jirou and his feelings and we KNOW that Toua is continuously breaking his heart...

However, we also get snippets from Toua's pov and we can see that he KNOWS that Jirou is in love with him. Which is just cruel with the way he’s treating Jirou and Jirou’s feelings. He could end this situation but he won’t. He selfish and doesn’t want to let Jirou go.

We also see that Toua is also in love with Jirou but he doesn't want that. He's frightened of love. The end of chapter 2 shows that as he speaks about it to Jirou in the taxi and then later to Chet in the dressing room.

All Toua wants is Jirou and him to be free and have sex and not have feelings for each other...but it isn’t working out that way.

Feelings are popping up and Toua’s grand plan to fix that is for them to sleep with other people since they have been semi-monogamous this whole time. While being sex friends they weren’t exactly in an open relationship, but they also weren’t with other people, at least to our knowledge Toua wasn’t fucking other people during this time and we know Jirou wasn’t.

Chapter 1, Jirou thought Toua was in love with Chet. Then he realizes it just because Chet had a big dick that Toua was obsessed with him. But Jirou still knows he can’t have Toua even if he’s not in love with Chet. At this point in time they have been in this sex friends relationship for some time, at least several months. They have been in a semi-monogamous state in which while technically in an open relationship they were only fucking each other. So it was more or less a relationship rather than just sex friends.

So in chapter 2 Toua went after that girl’s manager and then there was the thing with Ryuu in chapter 3...this is part of Toua’s grand plan to fix things since at the end of chapter 1 he realized he didn’t want to let Jirou go. We saw that with how he chased after Jirou after Jirou left and how he also forced Jirou to attend the business party. He wants Jirou in his life, but Toua also didn’t want to love him.

If Toua wanted he could have a loving relationship with Jirou but he doesn't want a relationship with Jirou… So he’s running scared and trying to reset to how things were in the beginning.

Yet, he's also not happy with Jirou fucking Ryuu even though he set up the whole situation for Jirou to fuck Ryuu. It was a lie about the toys. He probably has more at home. It was all about setting Jirou up with Ryuu so he can kill the love that Jirou has for him. And probably for the love he has for Jirou to die as well.

When it started to become real and Toua could hear it and how they talked sweetly to each other we could see his expression and mindset change. Even at the end and Ryuu had left Toua was still lying on the floor like he got his heart broken.

And that’s where we are. Both guys got their hearts broken by Toua’s actions. Jirou is just about done with this whole situation and might want to try to find someone else, someone he can love who will love him back. Maybe not Ryuu...or at least not now. But there is that possibility between them.

Toua, we have no idea how he feels about any of this. He never responded to Jirou’s question and then left the country with no word. Maybe he reached the end as well. He can see he can’t just be sex friends with Jirou and so they are done.

At least, it feels that way with how Jirou’s ‘relationship’ is juxtaposed with that of his friend/coworker’s in this chapter and questioning what cheating is and they broke up. Jirou even asks, ‘were you even dating to begin with’ echoing how he feels about his situation with Toua.

It’s a good, interesting story, with complex characters and motivations, but it’s filled with broken hearts and tragic love and it is all laid squarely upon Toua’s shoulders. The question I have is why.

Something happened in college that changed Toua. Maybe it has something to do with Jirou. We know the two had a past of some sort. But something in Toua still wants something more than what he had before he ran into Jirou. We know this because Toua went after Jirou, he pursued him, got him into this sex friends relationship, later on he knew Jirou loved him and still kept up the relationship, but when he started to love Jirou as well he tried to put on the breaks while keeping Jirou and it blew up in his face.

So where do they go from here?

If Toua wants he could still have a relationship with Jirou but that means being honest and open and admitting he’s in love with Jirou.

Jirou still loves Toua...but I wonder if he’s reached his breaking point. Maybe not yet, but soon. Soon a time will come when he just wants to be done with Toua and his mind games and even if Toua came to him he would turn him away.

Everything rests on Toua and what he wants.

Unfortunately, since this is still only chapter 3, I don’t see this being solved soon and more drama and heartbreak is headed Jirou and even Toua’s way. Hell, maybe they won’t end up together in the end. I’m not sure.

I just know...that while I’m not slut-shaming Toua...I don’t like him. He’s not naive, he knows what is going on. He’s being selfish and he doesn’t want to let Jirou go but neither does he want a relationship so all he’s doing is causing heartbreak. So far, he has four victims: himself, Jirou, Ryuu, and that manager. How many more is he going to create?

I want to introduce my friend to BL manga, but I want to start her off on something light. Please suggest some for me! I think anime would be nice, but manga is just as good. (=・ω・=)

➤ Oh my.. I feel so sorry for Shingo. We all readers know that Kagami doesn't cheat on Shingo & still loves him much like before but Singo loses his trust on Kagami already, unconsciously closes his mind till can't even smell Kagami's scent!
Kagami's love, words & scent starts to not be able to reach Shingo's heart! ╥﹏╥

➤ "Man or Woman, Human being or Cat, I like them all.." said Angelo.
Angelo is a shape-shifter then. He also can tell right away that Shingo is a little kitten.
Could it be that actually Kagami tries to protect Shingo from Angelo?