wow congrats to him for gaining some sense of self-awareness
I think deep down, Skylar feels guilty for what he said and how things between them went down. After finding out Cirrus was dropping out, he later started thinking about ways Cirrus was definitely showing him love, bringing him back to what he told Cirrus. Then he starts trying to console himself by saying it was Cirrus’ fault for lying, trying to completely absolve him of any blame. But I think it’s clear that Skylar wants Cirrus to come back, not necessarily they get back into a relationship immediately, but just to be there around each other. My mind is kind of jumbled up, but I hope y’all get it ;-; I mean, if he didn’t want Cirrus to come back deep down inside of him, why would he suddenly talk about how he doesn’t have the “right” to tell him to come back. Not to mention, he’s definitely trying to avoid the whole thing by pretending it just doesn’t exist, pushing his memories of Cirrus down. It’s clear to see that he sees Cirrus everywhere, but just tries to continue walking ahead. In the background before he got on the bus, we clearly see Cirrus there as well. Idk if he was rlly there, but even so, I think it’s meant to show how much Skylar is deep in his thoughts about Cirrus to the point of not even noticing him there, and him getting on the bus, not even looking out the window to see him represents Cirrus “haunting” him, in a way. And when he says “I don’t know anything” at the very end, I think he’s referring to what he said to Cirrus, that he knows nothing about love. I also feel like a part of him feels “responsible” for Cirrus dropping out.
Man, these two make me feel things so hard I wanna kill myself. I want to note that when I talk about “blame,” I’m not trying to say that either of them are 100% in the wrong and are fully to blame for things. Both of them have their reasons for acting the way they did and saying the shit they said, but remember that reasoning doesn’t equal justification. Honestly, what’s best for these two is to just take a break. If the author gives us a time skip, yay honestly, cuz that seems to be the healthiest option. Sometimes, people just meet the right one at the wrong time.
I absolutely love the way you analyzed this and was able to write it down, I was confused a little but your input made the chapter make much more sense. UGH I LOVE YOU AND THIS CHAPTER BUT MY HEART HURTS (they do deserve a time skip.)
You are wrong with the time skip
Girl I love the way you explained everything
Okay, can we talk about how mature and thoughtful MC is being? He understands how quickly getting together with ML right after finding out the manager was getting married may make it seem like he’s not with the ML cuz he likes him, but cuz he’s lonely or using him as a distraction or replacement. He wants to show ML that he truly does like him for him and not another person. Letting go of a first love is super hard, even when you never even got together or had an opportunity, so the direction he’s going is honestly really great. Not to mention, he might be feeling limerence (not likely) which could’ve made it harder for him to let go of the manager, but from the most recent chapter, he clearly understands that it’s time to move on and be happy with someone who makes him happy and comfortable. I truly believe the way he’s thinking is very mature and great
Guys I know that he’s taller, buffer, and generally stronger than his father, but you probably don’t know what it’s like to stand up to your abuser because it’s actually super hard. It’s easy to tell others to break up with their partners in those stories, it’s easy to tell Woo Won to just report his dad, but it’s actually so much harder to do that. Woo Won was raised by being abused by his father, so he’s still in that mindset right now, even as an adult. It’s called trauma for a reason. It sticks with you even when you forget about it or think you’ve “outgrown” it. And now, his “father” is even using his mother as blackmail. The thing is, even if he were to report his father for domestic abuse, it would likely be taken as a grain of salt by the police since Woo Won doesn’t have a lot of evidence right now. No voice recordings, no terrible bruises, no anything. It’s just going to be his word against his father. The sad thing is that there are many cases just like his in real life, yet you can’t just tell those people to report the issue since it’s almost always overlooked. My point is, Woo Won just can’t report his father and everything will be okay. The world doesn’t play out like that. Just try to understand and empathize with Woo Won and what he’s going through instead of calling him stupid or crazy for not beating up his dad. Not to mention if he beats his dad up, his dad can report him for assault since he’s going to have actual evidence on his body.
comments on bls that deal with trauma or mental health are always so frustrating it genuinely feels like readers here have no idea how any of that works irl
Fr. I get not understanding the character, but not even trying to empathize with the character is a whole different thing. It’s so easy for people to read stories like AITA and just say “break up”, especially if the partner seems abusive in any way, but they don’t consider the fact that it could be hard for these people because they’ve also had some good times and good memories with the partner. It’s hard for people to cut others off because our brains tend to make us think of many different solutions to save whatever we’re trying to save instead of doing the right thing. Like, at some point I even knew how unhealthy my relationship was and how much my partner was hurting me, but I still stayed because I always thought about the good times we had and how bad it would be for me to just throw it all away. It’s just like many abuse victims. They could’ve had a good time growing up but then their parents suddenly turn on them. This can cause the child to still have a sense of filial duty and will obey their abuser. In the case of Woo Won, I’m kind if assuming that he was starting to get abused kinda early on, like age 7 or smth, and now, he’s trapped in the mindset that “he’s stronger than me” or “he has more power and control over me.” Not to mention his father holding his mother’s safety over his head. I can’t help but feel for these characters. I mean, one reason why I loved this story and felt captivated by it was because of how well the author portrayed mental illness, that it’s not something to romanticize. I also related to the characters a lot. I’m so sorry to ramble, I just got pretty upset that people won’t bother to try and empathize or anything.
I'm so sorry to know that happened to you... I hope you're having or will have a better relationship that's not toxic!
But as for Woowon, I can relate to him, because I also got verbally and physically abused by my parents since I was around 6 years old, the physical abuse stopped when I was around 18 but the verbal abuse is still going on sometimes, now I'm 24 years old.
Honestly, of course I'm traumatized and have hatred towards my parents, but it's not like I could do anything about it, if I reported my parents when I was still in school, how do I get money to keep on living..? If I report them now for abuse, no one would bother cuz they would think I'm all grown up now, I should be able to manage my live and why bringing up the past..?
It's also hard to report anything in my country if you don't have money, sometimes it's still hard even if you got money, the government and law sucks.
I’m sorry to hear about what you’re going through and I hope you’re in a better place in life now. I’m simply just asking the readers to empathize with Woo Won. In my comments, I just talked about the mental and psychological perspective and didn’t talk about the financial perspective since I thought it would make my comment too long. Thank you for bringing this up though because it is a very important part of why people can’t just report their abusers. It’s just frustrating to see people calling him crazy or stupid about not doing anything even though he seems to be doing better in life. I’m sorry if there was a misunderstanding and if I said anything to offend you.
Thank you, and no I don't feel offended, I do agree with you on your initial comment. I thought I just wanted to share how I can relate to Woowon because I kinda have the same situation, that's all.
Honestly, I think there are some BL character that I would consider to be dumb because they kept on doing the same mistakes or something, but not with Woowon, he's not crazy or stupid because we can clearly see that he has the will to change and to make his life better since he met Seo An, it's just that not everything is going smoothly and it's not easy to really change your life 180° to be a whole lot better.
I really love BL with a great plot and realistic & relatable characters like this one, some of others that I like are Payback and Love For Sale, you should read it if you haven't, I believe you would also like it. (=・ω・=)
I’m glad to hear that I didn’t offend you. I also agree with everything you said. I love stories with realistic and relatable characters too! Thank you for your recommendations :) I’ll be sure to read them (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
No worries! Hope you'll have a great day ahead! (๑❛ᴗ❛๑)
ok look, I’m happy that it finally updated, but can i just say... I WAS ULTIMATELY DISGUSTED AND HORRIFIED BY THE LATEST CHAPTER. Look, I may be a huge pervert and an asshole, but I just can’t stand to read/watch rape, sexual assault, etc. It not only pisses me off but it also disgusts me to my very core to the point where I almost vomited. Thank you for uploading but please PLEASE put a warning for these things next time. I’m not mad at the uploader. I just wanted to say that I can’t stand that type of shit and I need a warning so that I at least know what disgusting things to expect.
I think when one of the tags says prison u should expect smth like rape or rape itself. I personally think ur overreacting a tad bit... the uploaded worked really hard on this update they probably forgot to put it or assumed as ppl knowing the wut the tags were to know that smth like this chapter was going to take place. Thank you now plz try to find smth to ur taste
there’s no rape tag. some people are traumatized by rape.OP was polite and justified.
sorry but people arent gonna think they have a relationship, people are gonna think theyre IN a relationship think abt it, theyre “known” to hate each other and cant stand each other, their managers hate the other and have led their fans to do so as well, leading to terrible fan wars which us highly unprofessional. but now, theyre suddenly living together and are being seen wearing each others clothes and accessories out of nowhere???? and we all know how people are with shipping idols and actors, celebrities in general ;-; theyre gonna think these two r absolutely dating
Gotta love enemies to lovers!!!