I can’t feel any compassion for their storyline, like, at all. KD being all angsty and their situationship, fine. But this whole “I can’t live without you” ass arc is really a kick in the balls. It feels like one of those things where the author is telling you how a character feels rather than actually fleshing it out well.
I feel it too. Especially with that little memory flash a few chapters ago when Dan (I think) remembered the good and fun moments with Jaekyung... Like, there were no such moments shown in the main storyline so the flashback felt simply fake and unreal. It could've had more potential, unfortunately it's lacking 〜 ̄△ ̄)〜
I think what's happening here is Dan is too overwhelmed with everything. With his grandma in hospice, he knew she'll be gone soon. All the things he endured all this time to make the ends meet and provide for his granny felt lacking as there's no he can do with her situation. Her granny raised him despite old age and now that she's sick but he can't do anything is like a slap of reality to Dan that he's just a burden to other, one that can't do anything right. It's more than just about Jaekyung. Tho, the chapters didn't really reflect that well
I’m not an expert but if I recall correctly, abuse victims normally stay with their abuser because they still cling to their good memories and moments their abusers treated them decently (which is why they always go back to them when their abusers falsely promise they’ve changed). Dan’s brain is in a similar situation where he empathized with Jaekyung too much and only remembers him when he was being decent to him and not abusing him. That’s why he still thinks of Jaekyung and his heart misses him — cause his brain didn’t want to believe the abuse as part of Jaekyung’s character.
And I’m sure that having that weight on his shoulders is tough, but 95% of the manhwa is just dub-con/no-con smut say gex so it’s hard to really feel like KD is a real character outside of being a trope-y 2D. And despite being a victim, he’s this naive abuser-sympathizer, too. I forgot the term, but like there’s a real empathy deficit here because… this story ain’t that well written (imo)
Although the male leads in this were sort of sappy and loving-types, I found it strangely refreshing that they gave their undivided love at every moment. It’s nice not to have to go through the shitty male lead syndrome or slow burn angst. The whole gender disparity blindness is also quite nice because though there is chauvinism and sexism written slightly into supporting cast or insignificant mob characters, the main ml (nine) and for example robbie, demonstrate a flip on the whole gendered convention behind these stories that are centered around aristocratic landed gentryish periods. I think that for the sake of a wholesome upbeat and optimistic narrative, its just nice to read. Another thing I liked is that finally finally a story with a “Female lead” who isn’t a twist villain (i mean, most of them are sooo obvious too, like…) or plot device controlled by a greater power. We just have a genuine, down-to-earth but not too jaded and loving “Female lead” in Yuri and I love that. Because girls should be girls and be besties bc i love women supporting women (its just how its meant to be, duh). More than anything, wow! It’s actually complete!!! Can’t say that for more than half the villainess or similar thematic novels on here, esp the ones at the tops of the popularity page (sob).
Something to run through: Yea, Melissa is a mary sue, doesn’t really have any perceived flaw other than a bit of the overtop shows of ‘manly’ (not for being assertive or other qualities associated with men, but literally scenes of her with a clearly masculine face played into the whole “im a strong man” kind of character which i actually quite like) charm
So there is that. Other than this, everything is rather upbeat and convenient, the narrative aspect of Yuri suffering through countless iterations of a miserable life between the grasp of shitty men is so real (ha. ha. ha. except some of us aren’t fortunate enough to be pretty and awesome like she is) it’s interesting and pitiful and makes me appreciate her optimism despite it (albeit with the help of melissa). Anyways, sorry for the yap sesh, definitely read this if you just want something fluffy to chew on.
Ig possessing the aura of a power bottom is a canon trait that acts as a permanent attribute in his felling of the same gender (?)
Everybody tryna figure it out . I was referencing neuta here bc in the latest chapter his stupid ugly friend was like “don’t you know how you make everyone fall in love with you” etc etc and I just thought it was so funny that he puts power into power bottom like an innate trait lmao. Also, just going by bl convention, I think neuta would be the bottom here, since most manhua/hwa/ga make it a point to highlight size disparity as a way of showing traditional gender roles (bottoms are smaller, more effeminate, tops are bigger physically yada yada) and we clearly see there’s an exaggerated difference in their statures (not that that should bar whether a muscular guy can be a bottom or not).
I’m not gonna comment on the red flags that have always been in this story that require heavy doses of suspension of disbelief, I just wanted to say smth i always found funny. That being, it’s teased somewhat carelessly whether the detective guy actually cares about his friend’s grooming a little boy or not, but what really gets me is the fact that iirc, they straight up “test him” to make sure he won’t report the fact that he’s getting statutorily raped by kousuke . Like if you’re gonna make an unethical fictional age gap romance, at least stop reminding ppl of the fact that you know it’s wrong??? Self-awareness is NOT the kind of look you wanna be going for when you do it so half-assedly (by trying to play it off and writing any personal sentiments into the characters as a stand in) and for the sake of (I assume) deflecting criticism. At least have the integrity and balls to be properly honest about what the story is or don’t mention it at all. Having a character expressly question the actions of the ML but not actually have him face the consequences and take accountability for it just means it’s a pointless plot point that just serves to add drama. It serves no narrative function (in terms of character development) other than make-up rape (i don’t really consider it sex tbh that man is like 30 ☠) and padding out chapters. Again, I don’t want to go into yapping anyone’s eyes out but I still think its so funny to ‘test’ a minor and be like “but you won’t tell anyone, right?”
Last little side note: The beginning 2 volumes were so wild… (so was the whole series but) Kousuke behavior is so crazy bc why is this grown ass man gatekeep girlboss GASLIGHTING a teenager into believing he’s in love with him like brother has NOTHING better to do. As I’ve gotten older, it’s become kind of a turn-off that a man that age is THAT emotionally immature, and don’t get me wrong, I like my men ***pathetic***
Anyways: certified loverboy certified pedophile
IN ARCANE JESUS’ NAME, THANK VIKTOR FOR THE RETURN OF THIS SUPER INTERESTING MANHWA
VIKTORNATION HOW WE FEELING?