
th novel is actually one of the best Chinese historical drama novels ive ever read. altho it does have the typical evil female charas, which i cant really criticize bc it's basically a staple in this genre, as a whole, the female chara cast are better written than average. mc is not the most beautiful female or particularly strong, so she have to use her wits and eloquence a lot, acquired by her experience in her previous life, to manuever the schemes of the villains. the ml on the other hand is the most good-looking guy and their dynamic is similar to using each other, then allies-to-lovers with the romance very slowburn and a side plot, bc the main plot is about mc's revenge. and it is so cathartic.

I read the author's other story about the student x teacher (with a 14 year age gap) and it has a way higher rating. why is that? where is the moral police? ig a morally wrong relationship is fine if it's depicted wholesomely with the student being the one pursuing the teacher, therefore making it not "predatory"? meanwhiile this story, both of them are working adults with toxic tendecies which the author makes clear, but since this has SA (which is prb meant to be mc's comeuppance) it's disgusting and not worth reading ig. it's ridiculous to jump on the hate train so easily. just dont read it (the title obviously hints at toxic). and if ur a teenager just recently discovering yaoi and/or prefer wholesome stories... just dont read it cuz ur not the target audience.

ill take this any day over some generic wholesome boring romance. i like how u can make inferences based on their expressions; the author's skilled in visual storytelling. although the mc is a scumbag and their relationship is not the wholesome kind, their dynamic is great like they're meant for each other. the author managing to showcase their strengths and flaws while keeping the setting as a banking office relevant in 5 chapters with a clear plotline obviously demonstrates their ability to write and research. i was not once bored (albeit confused a bit with the jargon).

yk what i just realized i do got standards apparently for rape fetish stories after all. rape with love is more tolerable than rape for the sake of smut.

unfortunately theres a ton of stories with rape and "love", albeit not the pure wholesome kind. i used "love" to encompass a broader amount of stories containing rape and while obsession is usually the case the story romanticizes the shit into "love" so the leads get together and get their happy ever after and blah blah blah. u get the idea. and i dont necessarily just mean stories with a lead that rapes while in love, but also stories with a end goal of love that contains rape.

"ive got to keep a clear head at all times" WE ALL KNOW UR GONNA BE DOWN BAD FOR MC in all seriousness tho, im excited to read how this story and its themes will conect to the greek myth about sisyphus. i assume smth about mortals seeking to understand the absolute truths about the universe is meaningless and playing god to cheat death is ultimately futile and will result in disastrious consequences. also, i will bet 5 cents that mc's family is probably connected to ml's past somehow, since mc's amnesia and family is a plot point
damn this story's art is legitimately the embodiment of those weird ass yaoi proportions