can someone explain to me the whole deal with the black-haired violinist? like, why he wanted to break it off with kaji when he did love him, and how kaji was hurting him, why kaji started to hate music...
tldr: ugetsu is more passionate about music than he is in love with akihiko. doesn't mean ugetsu isn't in love with akihiko, but he's forced to choose between the two because one distracts from the other. but he doesn't want to give up either, so stringing along akihiko is the best he can do. akihiko begins to hate music because he's envious of ugetsu's natural talent, and also probably because he associates his love for ugetsu with his love for music so when their relationship goes south so does his feelings for music.
ugetsu (the violinist) & akihiko (kaji) have a volatile relationship, to put it nicely. even though akihiko loved ugetsu, and even though ugetsu reciprocated that love, the complex emotions that started their love and the complex emotions they carried ultimately doomed their relationship to failure. for akihiko it was stress from his parent's divorce, the envy he felt towards ugetsu for being "naturally talented" so much so that akihiko couldn't replicate that skill (and ultimately gave up playing violin because of it), and pity because having natural talent meant that ugetsu that led to the start of their relationship. it was a fixation on ugetsu, an almost rivalrly, and those strong emotions under the right circumstances can be warped into some idea of "love." which sounds wrong or hard to think of as "right" if you have little-to-no experience in romantic relationships, but people are complex and romantic love starts and continues for a lotta different reasons.
ugetsu on the other hand was a bit of a recluse, as hinted at by the fact that he has no friends. being the Best at something means you don't have a lot of peers, which heavily implies that ugetsu isn't good at dealing with people or can't easily handle the complexity that comes with building interpersonal relationships. ugetsu is insecure in his relationship with akihiko, he calls himself a "coward" in part because he doesn't want to face the fact that he knows akihiko's infatuation with music is muddled by ugetsu's "natural talent" (an unachievable standard for akihiko. he can't reach the skill level that ugetsu has, which is why he quit playing violin altogether), and partly because his real passion lies in music. he loves music in a way that he can't love akihiko, and balancing those two things isn't working because he knows he's "suffocating" akihiko with his skill while also being distracted by him. be it because he feels guilty, or because he's genuinely distracted by akihiko, ugetsu can't progress with his career with akihiko in the picture.
but both of them are young and cowards. ik "early 20s university students with fulltime careers" doesn't seem that young but their inability to let go of one another is a sign of immaturity. akihiko can't give up on ugetsu because ugetsu keeps sending mixed signals, and ugetsu can't give up on akihiko because he doesn't want to and is doing things half-way while hoping that akihiko will be the bigger person first and let go.
akihiko hating music circles back to that envy that he felt for ugetsu's natural talent. it could also be that he started associating his love of music with his love for ugetsu so when their relationship started to sour so did his love for music, but it's pretty clear that his envy had something to do with it. they're written really complexly, it's very similar how real people push and pull and hurt each other with their in/ability to commit.
like, i love seth and all, but horus's feelings also need to be validated, instead of seth turning it into another rant about himself
honestly I feel like Horus's feelings are wasted on someone like Seth and he needs to come to terms with that and get over them because Seth's main priority is Anubis and breaking the curse. Horus is being extremely unbearable these last few chapters
yeah, im hoping this would culminate in horus realizing he's not helping seth in any way with his jealousy, or that he shouldn't waste his time pining for someone who clearly doesn't like him, and either way, just leave.