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Reading a smut manga/ manhwa makes people horny and ofcourse I'm one of them but does sex in real life feels that much good? I don't have a boyfriend yet but I have really high hopes and do guys really like when their partners express how they want to do it? (these guys are two characters from talk to me manhwa it's really good)

Plzz help me out
So l liked a guy from another section in my 10th standard. Well I was crushing quite hard on him for months . We became classmates in 11th class and Chatted a lot but I was crush over him was almost over. Once he told me that he had a gf in previous class so was glad I didn't told him about my feelings. later on one of my friend who was in the same class with in 10 th told me that he is dating someone , I knew that girl quite well so I got totally over of my feelings for him. For the next two years we remained good friends and school came to an end ,he moved to another city for further studies and i dropped out for preparation and started cramming but we remained in touch .it's been more than two years since then he is going to get his degree but iam still attending institute for entrance examination and haven't told him about not attending any university. Last year in Feb he confessed to me that he likes me but I don't know why but I got angry and didn't returned his feelings. But we did talked on this topic many times so all the feelings that were deep inside my heart somewhere became fresh again and I started having feelings for him again then one day I confessed my feelings with all the courage I had to him but he said that iam confused about my feelings for me and he doesn't want to be in a relationship without love and turned me down ,I told him that I really like him but for him it was impossible to be in a relationship without love and the reason he stated was related to his previous relationships. I got mad and cried a lot and we didn't talked for 3 days then he said there was nothing to feel awkward in bw us so our normal chatting continued but some months later he asked me out again but this time i turned him down it wasn't for revenge it was for somehow to protect my self from getting hurt again . We continued as friends and met up and things are still going smoothly but he is on my mind all the time , i even think about our future as couple , i can't help it . But i also want to settle my feelings for him wether to be friends with him or make a move ? It's too hard because i haven't told him about me not attending college yet iam scarred about he will think. What should i do ? Tell him or not ,plzz help me