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I just want to vent. Feel free to scroll pass this. I'm just too sad. My cat died three months ago because the vet killed her. (I sincerely wish their clinic stops operating because they are terrible. Everyone sucked there and gave up on my cat when it was their fault when she was suddenly hospitalized there.)
And after her death, I've been feeling complete shit. I'm too upset and depressed, not getting work done. All I've done is do stress eating that made me gain a lot of weight which I'm also not happy about (it's not a healthy diet). But anyways, I don't know how to cope with grief. I've been crying on and off and at the most random times.
I can't really talk to my family or friends about this since it brings the mood down and some will say she's just a cat. I know that not everyone can relate but she was my life line and she was family. I just... I don't know what to do. I'm very much aware of the state that I am in and I've been doing self sabotage but really, I just don't know how to stop feeling this way. Even I am exhausted. It's not like it's the first time I lost a beloved pet, but she was my everything.
I just really love my cats... Yes, even her brother followed her too soon as well. He got sick, too and passed a week later after hers.