Licht's Favorite

I really love this story, but i think i will be dropping it.

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So i read the novel. It's chapter 300something and she's still not in love with the emperor. Actually, one time they got so drunk that his majesty told her he loved her and she actually came onto him and they slept together, but couldn't remember a thing so they both thought they took advantage of each other. Then FL found of she got pregnant because of this one night, ran away, had a baby in secret and it turned out it's not only a boy (first born son of the emperor) but also looks exactly like the emperor. He goes to visit her unexpectedly and she tells him about the child. Or course he's super happy - but she wants to die and even kinda hates this child - she wanted to abort it but didn't do it because it was a child of a royal blood. ML gets emotional and finally says he loves her but she starts crying and she told him that this is the first time that she hates being a woman and that his majesty made her feel this way. She doesn't want to marry him cause it will take away everything she's got so far (the name Winter he gave her and other things she accomplished) and even tho she seems to be attracted to the emperor physically (she couldn't stop thinking about the night they spent together and kept thinking the emperor was hot lol) she seems to not love him this way at all. I'm just so heartbroken and sad for the emperor, he's truly one of the best MLs I've even encountered and he's hurting so much because of her... She doesn't even like their child, she said she doesn't care what his majesty does with him and she said the child doesn't even feel like her family because it's the prince. I like slow burn but after more than 300 chapters i would think she would at least love the emperor a bit, see him than more than just a superior, maybe consider if she could be happy with him rather than as she is now.............. I really felt so miserable when he told her he loved her when their child was in the same room and she just went "omg I'm so disappointed you made me hate being a woman for the first time in my life" and he even hugged her and apologized and said it was all his fault............... I just can't, I'm not patient enough to wait so long for the FL to open her eyes and fall in love when it's been so many chapters and she's still the same

Sorry for ranting but i love this kind of story and I'm just so pissed that this is going in this way, i don't remember a time when I was feeling so sad and wronged towards the ML and not the FL

His majesty may have looked cruel during war but in private life he really be the purest man out there