Contains spoilers!!!
I know not everyone has a happy ending irl but I really wish Oscar and Lily had one (╯°Д °)╯╧╧ Imo, Oscar lived a pretty sad life. I wish he had time to live a happier one with Lily. Authors really know who to kill for the most impact. Dammit. But I guess I should just be happy that I get to see Missha and Gian live happily.
Oscar was planning on retiring?? I know he entertained the thought of leaving everything behind to leave with Waldo but then stopped and stayed... I’m guessing he stayed for racing and Lily. I’ve just finished reading this and my heart is in pain for lily and Oscar If Oscar was planning on retiring was he also decided on being with Lily? I love how you said “Waldo and oscar’s endless summer may have stopped for Oscar. I think Lily was a pretty big part of that? But till the very end I don’t think either lily or Waldo knew who Oscar loved. It’d make sense if Oscar said he loved both of them but in my opinion one was a past love and one was his current love? However it didn’t feel like he loved lily as much as he once loved waldo, you know what i mean? Well, he sacrificed himself for Lily and I guess that’s probably the most painful but clear evidence that Lily was loved? Crying rivers right now
Omg thank you so much for sharing all that. Would it be too much to ask if you can share more about what the book includes about Oscar and Lily? The manga was centered around Oscar and Lily but I feel like we learn so much about Oscar and Waldo instead... and I know the books are mainly about oscar’s past so that’s more Waldo than Lily... I’m just trying to make sense of Oscar and Lily’s relationship... in the manga we get more Oscar and Lily scenes but I feel like I only understood what Waldo meant to Oscar and maybe Oscar till the end didn’t even really understand what lily meant to him but it’s just so sad that lily has to live with the fact that maybe oscar loved him but he died partly because of him and I don’t think I’d be able to process all of that if i were him... the ending with the radio call between Oscar and Waldo I think that’s pretty reflective of their relationship... but that understanding between them was also the thing that stopped them from being together... Oscar also mentioned to lily that they wouldn’t always be on the same team and would be only seeing each other randomly but it didn’t feel like this would be as issue between them as much as it was for Oscar and waldo... Oscar did say to Waldo that their race was over so when he didn’t end up going to London with waldo it felt like he chose racing and Lily? It’s just confusing since he was entertaining the thought of retiring and maybe he was conflicted about whether or not or when he would quit... now I’m rambling too ahaha. I have so many thoughts and questions about phantom lolol I’m considering reading the novel but I feel like I’d just end up with more unanswered questions
Well, to put it simply...this one was a heck of a rollercoaster (⊙…⊙ ). So please read on if you're curious about my inner thoughts at 4am. Hahahahahah. BTW, contains spoilers so stop reading now if you haven't finished!!!
- Shiwoo: I felt really bad for him. I know he made a shit ton of wrong choices (like a lot a lot). But honestly, when I read the part that he continued to sleep around just to prove that what happened with that shitty ceo was no big deal, my heart absolutely broke. I don't personally know what it's like to be abused (and with a dad figure at that--fucking bastard), so I can't really say I understand what kind of turmoil was happening inside his head. So before blaming him for turning his ex psycho (he definitely was a catalyst, I know), please try to put yourself in his position. He was endlessly testing Hyun since he subconsciously couldn't accept himself, so how can Hyun? The insecurity and anxiety was realz homies. Also, I can also understand why he couldn't just easily tell Yujin the truth. I mean look what happened with Hyun. It was trauma after trauma. Damn. Poor dude.
- Hyun: He had a lot of potential. I thought that they could've lived happily but his love for Shiwoo turned into manic possessiveness in the end. Shiwoo isn't blameless, yes. But, ultimately, you can't just keep blaming your actions on the things other people do. What you do is solely up to you in the end (you ain't Ella Enchanted, hun). He definitely showed a lot of manipulative behavior and needs help. He was like a typical domestic abuse bastard. Playing victim and blaming everything on what his partner did. So not cool. (Also, was he killed or sumn???)
- Yujin: He was a really logical person imo. Such a well rounded character. All of his emotions were reasonable and of someone who just purely loves Shiwoo. I could empathize when he almost didn't want to take back Shiwoo since he fully believed that he was happy with Hyun. Honestly, Yujin was confused 90% of this series. I'm just happy that he is able to love Shiwoo the proper way. I wish they talk about the past and just lay bare everything. Maybe then they could both start fully healing.
- Eunchan: Honestly, he was best boy. I'm glad Shiwoo has a friend like him.
So that's my take for the major characters! I still liked this series, it goes into depth of what abuse is like and, you know, what to do and what not to do in those circumstances. Hope you give it a try. (⌒▽⌒)
Idk but I cried so much for Donghyun and the Dad. The love triangle between them was just so shitty. Like.....damn. (╯°Д °)╯╧╧
Nearly bawled my eyes out with the panel with Taejun hugging the dad. I know that depression is a mental illness and all...It just sucks that they couldn't be happy together. I keep wondering what these people go through to give up everything they love. It just breaks my old heart. (︶__︶) Please ask for help when you need it. Please don't give up.
I felt like they had the right love at the wrong time.
Imagine reading this without any sleep. The frustration I went through (╯°Д °)╯╧╧ and then it just ends like that. Oh stress, my friend.
Wait that's me Σ(  ̄□ ̄||)