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i just realized in ch 61, (spoilers)
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Xin's last day outside, we found out Lau made these bandmate friends BECAUSE Xin got into contact with their producer friend. Bro was setting up a social group for Lau. He obviously wants to spent time with Lau- asking him to hang out or do something together, Lau always refuses, and Xin is constantly setting up a plan to ensure that Lau won't be lonely even if Xin won't be there. In sense, he's been setting up a plan to disappear from Lau's life even 5 years back.
On the flip side, Lau realizes he can't replace Xin with other people, yet when he realizes Xin did all this, his reaction is feeling humiliated and manipulated (which is fair, he thought he made those friends by himself) to shattered as he shouts "Do you know how much pain I go through because of you? Do you realize how agonizing this is? I want you to feel everything I do!"
and that's when he stops. everything finally clicks, this is EXACTLY what Xin is thinking- it's why he's weirdly calm even after Lau nearly chokes him. Xin probably has had intense emotions and Lau is the one who expresses it for him. it's why Lau suddenly bursts out crying after asking "what is your problem", then seemingly tries to sift through the candy and get Xin the "white konpeito" he lost earlier that day, maybe as an apology but he's already too late.
Lian seems to even hint that this day was the prime day for Xin and Lau to run away- maybe even the reason why she and Wei decide to conveniently be busy than spend the day with Xin. But Xin also chooses not to vocalize these things and let Lau just get the wind knocked out of him with every realization.
Your honor, they're toxic for each other