I better just send you this msg instead of posting it of the front page, it feels weird otherwise. Anyway I'm sorry it's happening to you then. I'm not really knowledgable in mental health issues for THAT reason, now I know it has a name! I've avoided reading about this stuff because I know I won't be able to get it out of my head and it will just add to the neverending excesive introspection. Funny how I came to know it, a manga site (of all places). I often hear from people who don't know the extent of my issues that making ultra informed decisions and thinking a few steps ahead is a good thing, but hardly anyone realizes thinking 13000 steps ahead doesn't leave you much time to actually do shit and I'm just stuck in a loop of second guessing everything a few dozen times over. None of the meds I've ever taken have helped with this things and I just got into psychotherapy a few months ago so there isn't a lot of progress so far. I honestly, truly, REALLY wish you the best. I hope you don't spend way to many hours of your life thinking how cavities are forming because you couldn't brush your teeth for a couple of hours like I often do, lol.
I know how you feel. You always feel guilty when a choice you make goes wrong. You tend to over think everything which is why you want stay informed and know what's going on with you but at same time you wonder if this will just make you psychoanalize yourself more. My hyperawareness ocd actually leans toward sensorimotor functions. So mine is a bit a constant cycle. Good to know there is someone closer out there who understands. I wish you the best as well.
Twisted. Sadistic. Heartless. Inhuman....
*looking up synonyms for SOB*