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The ml was adopted and sculptured by an obvious pedo and his son is so damaged by this that he assumes the boy has been his father’s lover? And he’s mute so instead of getting him pen and paper he just…rapes him…. Right okay. I think the boys untouched tbh, seems the father have a god complex with him. To “pure” to actually touch

So I’ve recently been diagnosed with BPD and what this boy is doing…he’s splitting. Aka disconnecting because he saw the older guys absence as rejection and as a coping mechanism he’s pushing him away. Behaving like it’s already a done deal. Bpd happens when someone’s had a traumatic childhood and as a result we’re often very black or white in our thinking. When we trust someone it’s so very easily broken and for some ppl being busy is okay but for ppl with bpd that can be the end of the whole relationship….itd very hard to describe.

It’s so common for this to happen that I’m unsure why we’re all so surprised? However there is something I will say….i don’t think the author was trying to make this “hot”. I never once saw this and thought it was hot. The authors other smex scenes have been very spicy and “hot” this however just felt sad so for that I guess thankyou? But also not thankyou. I’d have preferred the author to have had him choose any other method than this to get the uke to hate the seme. It almost doesn’t feel real…like this isn’t the character we’ve grown to know but I guess that’s the whole point?

I’m really not good at mystery type games. But from what I’ve gathered so far the cousin is suspicious but I don’t understand why? Doha (forgive me I forget names) let’s just say semi and uke . Okay so semi seems the most suspicious right? He can kill the killer, he knows where hidden doors are and he got upset when our uke was willing to sacrifice him on the bridge. I’m 50 50 on whether he’s the killer. So far it seems like he’s just a man in love or falling in love who has yandeer tendencies. He hates that the uke doesn’t actually care, he’s always trying to get the uke to confirm that he does in fact care about him the most. Whenever the uke in trouble he saves him but when it’s him the uke doesn’t save him (supposedly). Maybe my memory is bad but we’ve never actually seen him die, we only heard that he’d be the one to die away from everyone else. That’s what makes me suspicious of him…. It could be a story where it was a simple horror game but then the semi seme (can’t spell) ended up taking on the role of the killer and now there’s 2 (usually in these kind of movies there more than one). We don’t know the og killers motive but we know th semes, he’s obsessed with the uke, he doesn’t want the uke to escape and forget him so he’s okay staying in this continuous loop. He’s already started to show how he’ll kill all the others and even potentially the uke now (the bridge)….or he could really just be the saviour type character where the uke can only escape once he dies for good (the love interest usually dies saving the main character) and that could be why the uke was never able to escape because he couldn’t fullfill that trope ….who knows

I know hanna probably isn’t his romantic partner but I dunno….ive lost a lot of respect for this heroin. She supported a weak man who didn’t respect her at all for years. She then lets another man into her home and instantly offers herself up to him and “competes” with this hanna woman. She has no self respect at all. We as the readers know hanna probably isn’t a thing but in her eyes he’s a taken man and she’s just okay being his play thing? The other woman? I don’t particularly enjoy reading about home wreckers. (I know she won’t be but in her eyes she is and that’s all the info I need). Honestly she needs to work on herself and frankly he could do better. If he likes woman like her he has a savior complex.

The blue haired alchemist would make for a great story if she was to go back in time. Poor woman was used, abused and used some more. As much as I felt bad for her hubby he ultimately went down the wrong path to. I couldn’t see the, being happy together if they’d lived. Then you have their poor son…what happened to him? Did I miss something? He was alive but missing some of his soul?


Anyway, I enjoyed the story but I felt really sorry for everyone the empower had contact with.

If so, does anyone have the link please?

So if anyone has a link I’d be great full but also, from what I’ve read in the comments (spoiler)
She ends up with the Daniel guy, and I can see that. Like the white haired guy said, she’d drawn a line. She doesn’t see them as “available” even though they are, they’re the same as the girl, just people for her to help. She doesn’t know much about daniel, he’s practically a stranger and seems like the least effected of all the characters. So there’s not the “saviour” thing she has with everyone else.

So I hate the emperor and trashta, however... if the emperor and the empress had communicated properly, I could have seen the story being a lot different. The emperor has already shown that he has a lot of faith in the empress, so if she’d actually fully defended herself, and shown a little emotion I believe things would have turned out differently. It pains me to say this, but they’re two people who would have made a solid power couple IF they’d shared the same love language. If you’ve read the novels then no spoilers, if you haven’t then spoilers-
The scenes where they’re children is kind of sad, they had a very cute and strong relationship that could have grown and blossomed but they just didn’t share the same emotional needs as each other in adulthood. Our empress is very serious and shows her love through her work, she’s basically a workaholic and the emperor is the housewife that is desperate for some love. He has the uttermost faith in the fl but he’s to ...needy. And he makes stupid stupid decisions in desperation. I don’t pity him at all...I just like to understand each character . If they’d sorted out their communication I think trashta would have become a forgotten mistress. One who birthed a child and was sent away. Then banished once everything came out. It’s the fact that there was the rift between the emperor and empress that gave trashta the wedge she needed.
As much as I love the fl love interest I think he’s the “perfect” man. He’s bold and outspoken, daring and ballsy. He’s the man that she needs. He’ll call her out on her bullcacky and demand the love he deserves lol. This story is basically how two childhood sweethearts couldn’t call it quits once they’d outgrown each other.

I think the emperor and the empress aren’t in a love relationship. More of a friendship kind of thing, I could be wrong but they seem to love each other but not be in love with each other. Business partners I think. And this is why she’s so chill, it seems she knew about the mother, and her husband having a mistress’s. She didn’t seem to care and even wrote about the other woman. I could be wrong in this though, but it’s refreshing. Maybe she’d have reacted differently if fl was a boy. As it stands though the fl is no threat to her children, and her husband seems to love the child, as well as her own children. She legit has no reason to be a bish. She’s also not what I was expecting but she’s better.