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No fr though, this is what I'm talking about. Not just the words or letters but the "there is no word that could express what I feel for you" or the feeling of "being content just watching over that someone and it fills you up till you become an idiot who'd do anything for that person". THAT is the kind of love that I gave for the 8 men I've been with before. But no one stayed. I have my flaws, they have too, no one is perfect but they only give up while I accept theirs.
The only thing I know I did wrong, is to expect that standard of love that I know and been giving to be given back to me as well.
Now after my last guy I became numb. But, it is a blessing in disguise. Now I won't settle for any less, bc it is harder and more painful to expect something they aren't capable of, than just staying alone and giving that same kind of love I've been giving them to myself instead.
I realized it is much nicer, feels peaceful and I feel happier each day.
But this, Carcel did it. He made me realize time and time again that I am happier now being with myself, and that I should not expect to have something like this anymore.
Because if it ain't this? Boy, I'd rather die single. :>
But srsly, everyone deserves to be loved like this. So I hope you guys find it for yourself in whatever shape or form. <3