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No fr though, this is what I'm talking about. Not just the words or letters but the "there is no word that could express what I feel for you" or the feeling of "being content just watching over that someone and it fills you up till you become an idiot who'd do anything for that person". THAT is the kind of love that I gave for the 8 men I've been with before. But no one stayed. I have my flaws, they have too, no one is perfect but they only give up while I accept theirs.

The only thing I know I did wrong, is to expect that standard of love that I know and been giving to be given back to me as well.


Now after my last guy I became numb. But, it is a blessing in disguise. Now I won't settle for any less, bc it is harder and more painful to expect something they aren't capable of, than just staying alone and giving that same kind of love I've been giving them to myself instead.

I realized it is much nicer, feels peaceful and I feel happier each day.

But this, Carcel did it. He made me realize time and time again that I am happier now being with myself, and that I should not expect to have something like this anymore.

Because if it ain't this? Boy, I'd rather die single. :>


But srsly, everyone deserves to be loved like this. So I hope you guys find it for yourself in whatever shape or form. <3

Copy and Pasting my reply to one of the comments here, just so people who haven't experienced being in a manipulative, toxic and abusive relationship can get a little bit of understanding on how this works:

I'm replying bc I experienced this too. I get why people get angry at hajin for this but it's bc (maybe) they haven't been in that same situation. I'm telling ya, trigger words/songs etc. Everything you experienced (core memory or whatnot) with your ex is the worst. You can go about your day feeling the best then hear that one song you enjoyed in the past with the one that gave u trauma and it will freeze you, you thought you forgot everything but just bc of that single trigger it's like you're back to zero. You cry buckets again and it hurts so much. You start having the anxiety again, can't sleep and your heart feels like it busted a nerve. And it's hard to trust people again. It's the worst.

Even though u are aware that it's the past, but emotional/mental trauma is not a walk in the park (it's the worst) that would go away in just a year or two or just bc you met someone better.

At least Hajin is aware that it is not Geonwoo's fault, neither of them is at fault. It's just a matter of how he heals or if he let's Geonwoo help him heal. People have different ways of coping up and healing, and we have different capabilities in which how quick we are able to heal. But damn *first love? I tell ya' that hurts like a bitch. It's already a miracle that he's opening up to Geonwoo. But can we just understand that things like *trauma* is not just bc he is scared ? Iz more than that.

I know this is fiction but it wouldn't hurt to at least be aware, since you guys talk a lot about sympathizing and empathizing. Might as well understand that this is not easy. People who've been in this same situation can relate.

This is fiction but at least cut Hajin some slack. He's not even doing this on purpose and he's been clear to Geonwoo and not impulsively giving your commitment knowing ya ain't healed. It would just cause another toxicity when you're already together and u have some baggage.

I hope they can communicate (I know it's hard for the traumatized to talk about what they've been through) but hopefuly he can soon, then maybe Geonwoo can also understand why Hajin is the way he is when it comes to love.

And for all those who have been in this similar situation, I hope you find peace and healing within you because no one deserves being treated like that then left with an awul baggage. *sending hugs to ya'll*

Finally something that'd refresh my eyes and heart TT__TT . I feel like I've been getting immune from all the toxic manhwas I've been reading. So glad I found this (⌒▽⌒)

THE CHAPTER REALLY ENDED ON THE CRUCIAL PART! EVEN MY SCREAMS GOT CUT OFF ÀAAAAAAAAAA
WHY DO DIS Σ(っ°Д °;)っ

I really can't put myself at the same page as most of the readers here regardless wether they are continuously reading but is dissatisfied or if they dropped it.
I started watching the anime waaayyyy way back like 2014 ? I think, I was still fresh from highschool, I was dissatisfied that the anime is not continued and was left like that but I did not find the manga right after. It took me at least 3 years to finally decide that I should search and read the manga. At first I was not amused that livi isn't growing up pretty soon and I dropped this. After a year and a lotta chapters piled up, I started reading again and was amazed that I got up to this moment without even thinking like "why's livi still small?" or "why's there no development on the romance" when that's all I ever complained about last 2019.
But as I see the bigger picture and was shocked, not sure if everyone noticed that details but there is a chapter here where I noticed a dialogue on I think Livi (I think 20 chapters back from the latest one)
saying "a lot has happened this year when Nike came" smthn like that and boy I was surprised just a year has passed?! still?! no wonder livi hasn't grown XD that's a valid reason mygosh.
But yeah I've long ignored his small built and the fact that there's no romance development yet, bc there are far more things to be addressed before all of those that's why the title is as it is. So I'm waiting and savoring every moment before the final thing we're missing which is livi growing up and finally romance development. But so far I enjoyed reading and unfolding all the great mysteries of No Rain in this story. So yeah I just feel bad that a lot of people dropped this and most are just coming back to know what happened to Nike or if livi has grown yet. I think there's more to this story than just the both of them. That's why the title is written as "The world is still beautiful" we can learn many things from just the way they portrayed the world and how ugly it is but even tho it is still beautiful and u should not focus on the ugly things happening which is the true nature of Humans. peace (●'◡'●)ﾉ

This encounter really made it up for athy's lack of parents in her second life.
I understand why she cried like that, it's like she can finally wail and complain to someone which she didn't have the chance to do in her first and second life. Even as a baby/toddler all she can do is find a way for her little body to survive the harshness of the palace and to not get killed again.

It's a Mother's job really, they were the ones we complain to, open up to, and whine to; They gave us the comfort to do so and after crying you'll feel all that dirt wash down and you'll feel better.
With everything that's going on, this is really the best time for them to meet. I'm glad athy can finally act like a child. Now tho I'm a lil sad that she'll finally pass on. TT____TT hope you'll stay for a lil bit more

After the public announcement about the author thinking of commiting suicide and the fact that the prev uploader told everyone to drop this here, guess my surprise when I saw that the update is an actual chapter and not a notice or announcement.
Don't even get me started on blah blah blah then why are you here shit, I actually signed in lezhin waited for Mon Wed and Fri despite having a tight sched, draining work and shitty clients and the fact that I'm broke that I had to endure all day everyday but still manage to buy chapters in Lezhin without spending a single penny - while others here talked shit about they don't care if the author committed suicide and going to lezhin is too much work and they do not have time to do shit.

Just wanted to remind everyone because despite of knowing someone might actually die bc of this - everyone seems to be excited.
the question is How? (⌒▽⌒) how can yall do it?
and this'll be the last time I'll be bringing attention to this matter here coz seriously this is much more hard to endure than clients swearing and talking shit on my face.

I think Yus Liking Ran has long been happening since in the novel. It is revealed in the last chapter that Yus' mother taught him that if he falls in love and wanted to completely own the person then he has to kill them. So I think Yus in the original novel already liked ran so he killed her, now since the isekai'd Ran knew that Ran in the novel was killed by Yus she kept changing everything and telling yus not to kill her since she's just a temporary head and Yus will still be the head of Lachia.

But little did she know that Yus did not kill Ran in the novel because he hated her or because she is a threat to the position of head in Lachia, but because Yus Likes Ran lol
So all her actions are futile coz she'll still die lmao coz that's how Yus will show his love to her. But let's hope that he will not do it or even try to attempt it in this timeline.

I screameed ya'll

Selfish people who only think of themselves would make light and downgrade the author's situation. Damn that's serious, welp no use in babbling righteousness here since we all ARE READING in an ILLEGAL site whil author's are working their asses off just to get their work posted on sites to be read without pay.

BUT that doesn't excuse the fact that some people really are disgusting. Try putting yourself on ones shoes, you don't know their real situation and maybe there is a more underlying serious issue they are going trhough at the moment and THIS just adds to their baggage. You don't know what could be the last straw for some be it light or heavy, if someone is already on edge even if you think that what they are going through is nothing but that may be the last straw for them to finally let go. We are all sad that we won't be able to read this here, but think about other people as well hmm? Stop being so greedy and selfish, with the amount of illegal manhwa's and mangas here to read you won't be falling short yes?